Zaphara Cirin Vendt's blog: "Anguish Of A Soldier's Wife"

nullifie@hotmail.com feel free to message him with your own comments. The Broken says: i'm sure he desrved it and goodbye i cant talk to ppl who take part in this war, and are families of monsters out there raping little kids and killing innocent ppl ... i wont talk to you ever again. He'll learn not to run his mouth to me.

I'll be in Seattle with my husband! This is the first time we've been together since he left for Iraq last April! Its going to be the best weekend ever!

In light of all the bulletins of the murder of a child, I won't go into my own opinions of it. I will say however, a life was taken that shouldn't have been. He never got to reach very many milestones and it honestly breaks my heart to even think about his death. I recently lost my best friend to Inflammatory Breast Cancer. Her pain far surpassed anything I've ever gone through. Her fear isn't anything my mind can even grasp onto. I cannot imagine the pain that this child went through, or the fear in this child's eyes. I do know that he is an angel now and I do hope that justice for putting him in pain and giving him the concept of fear will be served. Life is so precious. And after learning of this news, I can only say as a mother of a gorgeous two year old myself, I hold him closer to me each night and couldn't imagine my life without him. ♥Zaphara

Does anyone play it? If so, I'd really like to learn to play the game. I have it downloaded but I'm so not good with games. I would love it if someone could show me the ropes. Zaphara.

OK so the Halloween party was going really well. We all wanted to play a game so, we went upstairs to my friends apartment, and started to play a game of Moose Head. For all that do not know what this is, you try to bounce a quarter into a bowl full of beer (1 bottle) if you get it in on the bounce, the last person that puts moose ears on their head and says, "moose head" has to drink the bowl. Well, I did this like 3 times within just a few minutes. Needless to say I was feeling pretty good, but not like totally trashed. Just a good ole buzz. Well, more people started to come up and play. There was one guy who is an ex-army guy who I've never had the chance to meet, but he is one of my really good friends, brother. His name is Hill, he's fought over in Iraq and he is currently studying Russian so he can get back into the army. Everyone was like OMG, you're going to be a Russian spy, and me having a little knowledge was the only one that got he was trying to be in Special Forces, but-- let civvies believe otherwise. LOL! He also wants to go back to Iraq, because he wants to finish. His words. Anyway, its so funny when two people with military knowledge can have a conversation about something that no one else can relate too, and we're laughing and joking and all that, so that was so awesome to FINALLY be around someone I can relate to! Anyway, he leaves and one of the other party-goers join in and some blond bimbo with really huge tits, fake titties at that, she was apparently someone on bounty hunter or something, I've not heard of or seen the show. Well, almost everyone knew I was an army wife, because my friends mentioned many times that my husband was in Iraq and one of the other guys that I was talking to asked me what he did over there, so I said he's a medic and so forth. Then the blond started bringing up Iraq and why we went in and just started this guy, Brett on the topic and all that. He said that his brother was there and anyone that supported their mission was not in support of the troops and was a moron. I told him, that I was in support of their mission and how dare he tell me that I wasn't in support of the troops like my husband and his brother, because I'd rather boost the morales of the soldiers so they would be happy to have so many people believing in what they're doing over there back here at home. Everyone in the room was totally against me and not a SINGLE person could tell me the two different things going on in Iraq right now, only ONE person could tell me what happened in the United States in 1993, but he was actually the one trying to have a civil and intelligent conversation with me about it. Also, not a SINGLE person could tell me the agenda of Al Qaeda. And when I told them what happened in 1993 that the WTC was bombed and planned out by Bin Laden's right hand man, that 6 people were killed, do you know what this little whore said to me? Only 6 people? woohoo! I'm like ONLY 6! 6 people who lost their lives that shouldn't have, you heartless bitch! Then I told her that do you realize that these attacks on US soil has been going on for 20 years? And when will it stop? And she looks at me and goes, 20 years of my life? No, I don't think so, then goes up to someone and says did you know that Al Qaeda has been attacking and bombing our buildings for 20 years of my life? I'm like OMG, do you know any history of the United States at all? Thats when the blond big-tittied girl came in and took the two out of the room. I actually had a descent conversation with the other guy, who I think I've made him re-think things. Then I went into the kitchen where Brett followed me in there again, just to ask me my opinions. And I said, I have nothing to say to you because you don't allow me to tell you my opinions, because you shut them down, cuss at me and insult me when I do. NO THANK YOU! After him getting all up in my face about not wanting to continue our conversation, he then tells me that because of my opinions, my husband was going to die! This infuriated me and I said, I'm so done having any kind of conversation with you and not really sure why you're so fixated on hearing my opinions when you tell me something like that. And I screamed FUCK YOU and went downstairs. Then the stupid whore, that didn't know her history said something like, yeah you better walk away and I turned around and flipped her off and her comeback was, yeah right back at ya. I'm like god you're so fucking retarded. THEN, I'm sitting on the couch with my best friend Joey, the gay one, ;) and he was trying to calm me down and I told him that if that guy came over here again, I was seriously going to lay him out on the floor. He was like I know you will so we'll just not talk to him or even listen to anything he has to say. So, he comes back into the house and sees us sitting on the couch and I can hear him make a comment about my husband in Iraq. And I just ignored it. He came over to the couch and continued to yell and scream at me. Then tried to tell me and my friend that just because I have a husband over there does not mean that he doesn't care or love his brother any less. When neither of us said that. But, does his brother have a wife and child at home? Does he himself worry about the love of his life not returning? No. He doesn't even have a clue the sacrifice I MAKE as an army wife when sending my husband, my best friend, my life off to war. He couldn't even stand in my shoes for 2 seconds without wanting his own back. He then told me again that with supporting their mission my husband was going to die over there. My friend Joey, then goes-- OK I've got your beer, lay his ass out on the floor. I said, I realize I said that, but I'm done even associating with him and don't really want to go to jail tonight either. Especially, the outfits we both had on. Me as Goth Ann and he was a bride. lol Anyway, after so much of this, he made me cry. He felt bad for it, and I told him, you have no idea what I've gone through for the past 8 months. NO IDEA the sacrifices I have made. I'm not a Bush ass-kisser like you've told me repeatedly. Then, told him that I did not think some of the decisions he's made to secretly spy on the American people by tapping their phones was right, I said the revisions he's made to the constitution were also wrong and I don't think that they keep the American people safe either. And when he is out of office, this evidence that will come up against him and his right hand-man Cheney will come out. I said, right now, as the Commander-in-Chief of our military, he is just that. He puts out the orders, its not the fault of our military men who are ready and willing to lay their life for the people of this country, not that many of you think our freedoms are being protected, but I see your ass, sitting on this couch, talking to me, with beer in hand, shouting out whatever opinion you want to, and our soldiers go off to war, so you don't have to. He then looked at me and said, I think you and I see more eye to eye on things that I gave you credit for. I said, you never gave me the chance to tell you any of this, you assumed I was a Bush ass-kisser, when that couldn't have been farther from the truth. I said, I care deeply for all of our soldiers, your brother, a soldier and my husband a soldier and there isn't a moment that goes on in my day that I don't think about all those that are fighting over there right now. He then shook my hand and said, I think this country is great to have such strength in one woman as you. I couldn't do what you do everyday, I have not walked in your shoes, and I do from the bottom of my heart wish you and your family well and that your loving husband comes home to you. And I said, I wish for you and your family the same and I hope that your brother comes home to you too. Then the trashed girl, the one who didn't know her history came over and says, something to him, that I didn't hear and he goes, no-- she's cool. Then her ass was so drunk later on that she wanted to drive home and I said are you sure? I really don't think you should drive, I really want you to get home safely. I don't think she went anywhere, she couldn't find her keys let alone her car. That was my night. How was yours?

"The other day I was reading Newsweek magazine and came across some Poll data I found rather hard to believe. It must be true given the source, right? The Newsweek poll alleges that 67 percent of Americans are unhappy with the direction the country is headed and 69 percent of the country is unhappy with the performance of the president. In essence 2/3's of the citizenry just ain't happy and want a change. So being the knuckle dragger I am, I started thinking, ''What we are so unhappy about? "Is it that we have electricity and running water 24 hours a day, 7 days a week? Is our unhappiness the result of having air conditioning in the summer and heating in the winter? Could it be that 95.4 percent of these unhappy folks have a job? Maybe it is the ability to walk into a grocery store at any time and see more food in moments than Darfur has seen in the last year? Maybe it is the ability to drive from the Pacific Ocean to the Atlantic Ocean without having to present identification papers as we move through each state? Or possibly the hundreds of clean and safe motels we would find along the way that can provide temporary shelter? I guess having thousands of restaurants with varying cuisine from around the world is just not good enough. Or could it be that when we wreck our car, emergency workers show up and provide services to help all and even send a helicopter to take you to the hospital. Perhaps you are one of the 70 percent of Americans who own a home. You may be upset with knowing that in the unfortunate case of a fire, a group of trained firefighters will appear in moments and use top notch equipm ent to extinguish the flames thus saving you, your family and your belongings. Or if, while at home watching one of your many flat screen TV's, a burglar or prowler intrudes and an officer equipped with a gun and a bullet-proof vest will come to defend you and your family against attack or loss. This all in the backdrop of a neighborhood free of bombs or militias raping and pillaging the residents. Neighborhoods where 90 percent of teenagers own cell phones and computers. How about the complete religious, social and political freedoms we enjoy that are the envy of everyone in the world? Maybe that is what has 67 percent of you folks unhappy. Fact is, we are the largest group of ungrateful, spoiled brats the world has ever seen. No wonder the world loves the U.S. , yet has a great disdain for its citizens. They see us for what we are. The most blessed people in the world who do nothing but complain about what we don't have, and what we hate about the country instead of thanking the good Lord we live here. I know, I know. What about the president who took us into war and has no plan to get us out? The president who has a measly 31 percent approval rating? Is this the same president who guided the nation in the dark days after 9/11? The same president that cut taxes to bring an economy out of recession? Could this be the same guy who has been called every name in the book for succeeding in keeping all the spoiled ungrateful brats safe from terrorist attacks? The commander in chief of an all-volunteer army that is out there defending you and me? Did you hear how bad the President is on the news or talk shows? Did this news affect you so much, make you so unhappy you couldn't take a look around for yourself and see all the good things and be glad? Think about it......are you upset at the President because he actually caused you personal pain or is it because the "Media" told you he was failing to kiss your sorry ungrateful behind every day. Make no mistake about it. The troops in Iraq and Afghanistan have volunteered to serve, and in many cases may have died for your freedom. There is currently no draft in this country. They didn't have to go. They are able to refuse to go and end up with either a ''general'' discharge, an ''other than honorable'' discharge or, worst case scenario, a ''dishonorable'' discharge after a few days in the brig. So why then the flat-out discontentment in the minds of 69 percent of Americans? Say what you want but I blame it on the media. If it bleeds it leads and they specialize in bad news. Everybody will watch a car crash with blood and guts. How many will watch kids selling lemonade at the corner? The media knows this and media outlets are for-profit corporations. They offer what sells, and when criticized, try to defend their actions by "justifying" them in one way or another. Just ask why they tried to allow a murderer like O.J. Simpson to write a book about how he didn't kill his wife, but if he did he would have done it this way......Insane! Stop buying the negativism you are fed everyday by the media. Shut off the TV, burn Newsweek, and use the New York Times for the bottom of your bird cage. Then start being grateful for all we have as a country. There is exponentially more good than bad. We are among the most blessed people on Earth and should thank God several times a day, or at least be thankful and appreciative." -Craig "With hurricanes, tornados, fires out of control, mud slides, flooding, severe thunderstorms tearing up the country from one end to another, and with the threat of bird flu and terrorist attacks, are we sure this is a good time to take God out of the Pledge of Allegiance?" -Jay Leno