misfit's blog: "blah blah blah"

figured i would do this...

what i find attractive in women:

sense of humour

brains

compassion

someone who shows they they dont hate women or has a distrust of women

about women...

sexist!!

anyways...for the first time in weeks...i feel happy on here (kinda).  i feel free

thats it...maybe my women blog will pop back up when i post this....

figured i would do this...

what i find attractive in men:

sense of humour

brains

compassion

someone who shows they want me...want me and not every set of tits

i havent added some guys on here and they ask me why.  i cant say some dont fall into attracted to qualities, but they dont communicate with me enough for me to see if they hold any qualities.  i hate having to "hold" the conversation.  you may have brains but if i do all the work...meh no thanks

sense of humour...a lot of the guys i talk to on here have a kick ass sense of humour.  i love to laugh and if it is always serious, sexual or drama...i dont want it

i can find a dude attractive, witty and smart...but he says the same things to every woman on here.  i dont find that attractive at all...i find it kinda desparate and dont want a desparate man

not saying i am looking for a man on here

just clearing the air for a few guys who have asked me things

since i can no longer comment on slaves blog...

i HAVE to say this. 

how in hell can a person say their pain is greater, more sorrowful, than anothers?

i hated this when my sister died and everyone (including my mother) said my mom is in the most pain.  not me...not for losing my pseudo-mother/sister.  not for being the last person to speak to her, not for her having fallen into a coma in my arms (literally).  i hated hearing that my pain was less than anothers

i didnt think mine was less

that pisses me off

i understand lashing out while in pain...but i have never ever even in the midst of my pain denied a friend their feelings of hurt, sorrow.

i decided to do a grateful blog today...screw giving negative stuff attention

i am grateful for Ms D

i am grateful for a cloudy fall day today, it feels like snow and with an extreme weather day...i have memories floating over me

i am grateful for a sleeping cat

i am grateful that my brother is now talking to us

i am grateful that with pain comes knowledge

i am grateful for having gotten to know you

:)

have a great day

fuck you

fuck you for treating me like a second class friend

fuck you for taking my kindness and shitting on it

fuck you for judging me harsher than you judge yourself

fuck you for not thinking your words/your actions may hurt me (your "friend")

fuck you for showing your appreciation in only words...and not actions

fuck you for hurting me

fuck you for thinking none of this is about you

feeling a lot better today...even after last nights spat of drama in poetics pics lol (wonder if it will rear its head here :s  my man stalkers are serious)

if you know nothing about me...the one thing you must know is.  i am an extremely private person.  having had a serious stranger stalker when i was 17 made me very aware of danger.  this may have been a big factor in why i take privacy (mine and others) as seriously as i do.  not saying if people want things public i have a problem doing that....i dont.  i just dont trust easily

my best subject in school was math until i discovered boys in grade 7.  my best subject in school from kindergarten on was phys ed.  i would have NEVER admited i was in any way form a jock...but i kinda was

i have sprained both my ankles probably more than 10 times each as a child

i find cocky people obnoxious.  you really arent that special.  oh sure i think people should have self esteem, but they should remember there is always someone better (whether it be looking, job, dancer, lover, cook, etc).  i think being cocky about looks is probably the stupidest things...looks fade...quickly

i have always hated my body...too skinny, not enough hips, too much boobs, flat ass

i rarely curse in real life...except when i am driving, then everyone is a cunt

thats it...dunno, just bleh

I came back to fubar figuring...i would hold no grudges.  I have even had a pleasant convo with pitbull.  I don’t take anything the authorities on here say to me as personal.  I know i can delete my pics and leave again no problem.

There is always someone who wants to drag me down....i figured there would be (non friends, grudge holders who want to keep it going, usual asstards, etc).  I have done pretty good handling this...this time around.

Now when it comes to people i considered friends at one time...i normally hold a certain amount of respect for them even if we aren’t friends now.  Example: Prinny....we had a horrible fight....i have never publically trashed her and i never heard a word her doing the same to me.  I will always respect her for that (among other things).  I know not all friendships end that way...with a mutual respect for not smearing the other in shit.  Meh

I am also sick of the ugly backstabbing cuntfaces and douchefucks who think that getting on my friend list is like some sorta trophy so they act all sweet, lovey and fake to my face....then i see what they say and mock behind my back.  My list is no fucking trophy and i called what kind of person you were and never added you for that reason.  Was i polite? Yes....i am not usually an asshole unless provoked.

I am gonna start looking around again...maybe i need to delete some people...those i haven’t talked to since we became “friends” aka “on each others lists”.  Maybe another break....maybe just take a breath and realize where this shit is coming from....and know it really doesn’t affect me at the end of the day.

Stop kissing my ass and stabbing me in the back

Cubby is green! :D  team cubby is aweome...blah blah blah lol

so i shall never have another idea again...and i might even take a break from here soon

i am topless today...so my promise on that part is fulfilled :@ and yeah

THANK YOU FOR ALL THE HELP YOU GAVE CUBBY