synner's blog: "Hated by Many~Confronted by None"

All these things that we support most really got nothin' to do with us. We do this shit outta boredom, or fear, or money, or fucked inteligence. Our circle and candle of light is small. So small we can't bear it. We heave out with Idea and loose the Center. All wax without the fuckin' wick Then...suddenly, we see names that once meant, wisdom, like signs into ghost towns, and only the graves are real.

indignance, viciousness, my vulgar apathetic morality. how long has it taken to build this haven? this safe place i have built for myself, where the apirition of a long since dead heart, can forever lay siege to my soul. my penance. the bull who gets the matador, the sting of the razor cut, shaving, the icy rythyms of a whore practicing her trade, to me these things were the best now sheding skin to start a life, i don't understand

Nope...you're right...i ddn't write that The point of posting it is to see if anyone else around here can comprehend what he is talkin' 'bout. Questions... 1) What is it to see...to be, & understand your flipside? 2) Why is it so many know there is more than just us...beyond our minimal ability to comprehend... but turn a blind eye, and want nothin' from it? 3) What brings that point of departure from those closest to us...when after we've determined to "want nothin in return" 4) Do you know why they've walked away, and why theres no coming home? Or in our self-absorbed worlds do we wallow in self-pity?

Fast...a cleansed soul rebirthing see...to be...and understand your flipside... you want nothing in return all is cry until the laughin'. There is more between the sky and earth that is beyond our philosophy unknown... and we want nothing in return The closest who need you and the closest surrounding you WILL WALK AWAY... AND WHEN WE WALK AWAY THERE WILL BE NO COMIN HOME...

I do not give in to peer pressure, 'cause I posess will. I do not praise meekness, 'cause I posess strength. I have no need for hope, 'cause my assertiveness has no use for it. I do not congregate among te "beautiful people", 'cause I can stand alone boldly. I do not seek to impress you...I only wish to impress myself. I do not bow, 'cause I am equal. I do not seek aceptance from others, I accept myself as I am. I don't dream...I achieve. I can endure buckets full of pain, hence I need no reprieve. I will never concede, 'cause I know I can win. I do not wear masks, who you read of , is who you get...I will not conceal my sins to make you more comfortable in my presence. I am completly unfettered, unrestricted, and untrained. I am wild & free, mentally unchained. I am a man who's fingers double as claws. I am negatively positive.... I am perfectly flawed.

If I had a fuckin' dime for everytime I've seen some asshole with a self-help book, come on and say "it's not your fault"...I'd have nough fuckin' money to hire a TEAM of asassins & scientists to find the most efficient way to exterminate these spineless fuckers. Truth is MOST ALL your problems are your fault. You do need help...but unfortunately (or fortunately) I cannot help you. Neither can any fuckin' book...or drink...or drug. I flat out REFUSE to be of assisstance to denial of our real problems. I am not one to console. You want sympathy??? It's between shit & syphillus in the dictionary. I will NOT provide humanity it's crutch...I will kick it away. I will not lie & tell you everything will be ok, because untill the true source of your repetitive problems is identified...things WILL NOT BE OK! ONLY YOU can seek advice from the strong instead of the sympathetic. ONLY YOU can take charge of your life. ONLY YOU can step up & take responsibilty. ONLY YOU can fix the source of your own problems when the problem is simply: YOU.

Most of us have opinions. Fine. Problem with this is that some treat their opinion like a hard dick. They're alway tryin' to force it into someone else. Havin' an opinion alone is ok...as long as we don't grind 'em down to be used as a weapon. Opinions make the world a more excitin' place to be. Differences are good. MOST rational fuckin' people, although seperated by personal differences, can still get along & respect eachother. I use the term rational VERY loosly, because THAT is a dyin' breed (my opinion). Without these differences the world would be a borin' joint. Intolerance to personal difference is the problem. If we could just learn to live & let live...and just agree to disagree, we'd be fine. We may even have half a chance at this elusive "peace"...a term we have grossly clouded. It really would be that simple kids... but I ain't holdin' my fuckin' breath.

The truth is like a fire, and very fuckin' few of us enjoy gettin' burned. BUT...beyond that; to be burned by my own truth. To allow my own truth to sear itself on my soul. Here is the hands down, meanin' & purpose of my existence. But ordinary life can be the easier & more attractive alternative. Friends, family and the commitments they bring, can allow me opportunity to take the focus off of the truths i don't wish to see. We can safely avoid the quest after our own truths our whole lives. We can stay asleep in the coolness of ordiary life. But truths fire might awaken us yet, with it's vicious stings. Compelin' us to live our lives in it's heat & light. Helpin' us to walk thru these fires and not get burned.

i hate ignorant people who repeat the the same ignorant cycles i hate people who abuse animals i hate large taxes due to poor govt. spendin' habits i hate people that give money to beggars only reinforcin their future dependence i hate the media for broadcastin' fear-insprng stories simply to keep the attention of their corporate sponsorship i hate a theif 'cause he takes in seconds what caused me pain to aquire i hate beauty pagents or anythin so shallow as to reward somebody 4 bein born a certain way i hate televangelists in expensive cars i hate pepole who fight for a cause ONLY AFTER they've been effected by it personally i hate a system that slaps the wrist of politicians & white collar "eletists", but severely punishes the lower class i hate junkies & the pushers that turned them into one i hate people who have more kids than they can care for i hate how this country idolizes movie stars, but the workin' man goes unnoticed i hate how this country spends BILLIONS on space exploration but our schools are underfunded i hate lazy pepole who feed like parasites off of govt sponsored social programs developed for the needy(not lazy) i hate people who cross busy streets slowly & cocky i hate raisin the minimum wage only to see prices rise proportionately i hate overtaxin the hard workin citizens to pay for the unmotivated(lazy) i hate people who use the roadside as their trashcan i hate religions that promise love & compassion but only deliver intolerance i hate people who blame everyone else for their sufferin but themselves i hate people ho use their freedoms to restrict mine i hate people who use lies & deciet only "cause they're not strong enough to speak the truth I hate a whole lotta shit, but most of all i hate myself, for becomin' so blinded by hate... i can no longer see much beauty in the world.

Our common enemy is anythin' that impeeds our growth. We are ALL alike in this manner. This is our common bond as humans. The most glarin' of these fuckers is "easy". The quest for the "easier, softer way" has become a plague across this once great nation. It has been fostered by laziness, weeded in religion, woven into politics, and ultimately been hallowed upon the shoulders of the majority, who TELL you..."it's okay". Some among us had better quickly take up arms, or our great society, will no doubt begin it's backslide, to a degree of which we have never witnessed. Do you still make dinner for your family? Or has Stoffer's offered you a more "time efficient" method? What are you gonna do with ALL this fuckin' "time" you've saved anyway? Maybe get on the computer & order some shit you don't really need...so you can clean your shower with "no mess & no scrubbin' in half the time???...so you can AVOID the hassle of goin' 2 the mall. Cause God knows that just sucks up TOO much time. When's the last time you watched a little boy, go outside and pick up a stick, & INSTANTLY be armed to the teeth...ready for battle against the attackin' hordes? You don't. We have ROBBED the future generations of havin' to actually USE their imagination. Takes too much time. Just plug in the fuckin' PS2 and WHAMMO!!!...instant babysitter, so you can go listen to your AUDIO BOOK 4 christs sake 'cause...shit...readin' actually requires effort & thought. Come on guy's...we're turnin' into a nation of mindless sheep. We walk around on eggshells, terrified of all this P.C. bullshit, "no haters". one love, one world crap...and we've adopted it without question. Fuckin' sheep. I say if the child is screamin' in the store...beat that little fucker! Who gives a shit who's watchin'! THATS YOUR CHILD! If someone does somethin' ignorant...assign him/her the name or phrase he/she deserves! No matter WHAT color, creed, race or religion! Fuck their feelin's. Ya know...i'm real sorry but your peoples historical plight. IT WASN'T FUCKIN' ME!!! Back-off my ass...you wanna change your world...START WITH YOURSELF!! Take the TIME, to prepare a meal, and SIT DOWN AS A FAMILY to eat it. E-bay will still be there. Decide that washin' the car in your own driveway shows that you have some pride in yourself & your possessions. Doin' homework WITH your kids & READING TO THEM OUT OF A BOOK...will re-kindle the imagination. Take the PS & put it up 4 a month & see what they come up with. Be fuckin' accountable 4 your own actions. Hold yourself responsible 4 your OWN actions...and then this world might have a chance again.