Six Nine Suited's blog: "Hello"

Well, what do you know? Here it is the first day of the last year in my 30's. Now unlike when I turned 29 and got all depressed. I am like embracing this shit. I am looking forward to turning 40 next year. I have no idea why? I guess it has a lot to do with how one lives. I seriously think that I believed the thoughts that I would had been dead by age 30. So for every year I have lived past the age of 30 is like bonus years. I mean when I was 16 I started partying hard. I mean hard, drugs, booze, beer, drugs. All that great shit. So it was figured I might over dose, choke on my vomit, car accident, or attempt dangerous acts where it is cool if you survive. Or you are stupid if you don't. Kind of like that fine line between idiot and hereo. So I am going to break down a list of favorites from 20 years ago. And compare to now. Here is an example Favorite Drug Age 19- cocaine Age 39- Ibuprofen Drink 19-Pabst Beer 39- Kettle One Press Soda 19-Coke 39- Diet Dew Band 19-KISS 39- KISS So somewhere along the lines of that. I am just doing that for how things seem to change, but actually don't. So yesterday. I want to say what a great joy and pleasure it is playing softball in pouring rain. I believe now I am sick. But we'll see after maybe I get some food down. So lucky for me, I was reminded that I had a Fantasy football draft last night at 6:30. Unfortunatly, I was late because I had to stand out in the fucking rain playing ball. For a winner take all tourney. Lets just say, I and my friends were not playing with winners. So I was asked to play for this team that I play against on Fridays in the Falls. Now this team has maybe beaten us one time in the years I can remember playing up there.(I think 7) They always talk about how good they are for tourneys, and shit like this. And they always ask me to play. So i said if my team loses and are not in championship this weekend. I would play with them in this tourney. I was going to put a team in, but last minute changed my mind. I should have. So these guys ask me to pick up some players. They should have asked me to pick up a team. I am no God by any means. I am better than your average player. These guys were not average. Or I really have a high bar on which I judge talent. The fact that we finished second, amazes me. It is too bad that 3 guys who played in the morning could not stay the afternoon. Cause then I would have dumped the chumps. and ..... oh never mind. It is over. But I am definatley finding these tourney's these guys play in and do well. Caue we could make bank. So the draft, I have no idea how I did, I was sleeping through half of it. Then I made my way down to Leff's on a weekend night. YES people. I shockingly went to Leffs on a non-softball night. Unlike some people I and we all know who seem to wind up there everynight of the week except when they have commitments, lol. So I think it was more about my friends getting drunk and having a good time than me. Because they all got sloppy ass drunk. I just want to go on record to say that the Birthday boy should not be the only one that seems capable of driving. I also must figure out if I paid my bar tab? I am going back to be sure. So I got home, and was tired from the long day. Then it hit me. I guess playing ball all day, then drinking. being out till bar time. If I drunk dialed any friends, or shit like that????? Sorry. Oh before I forget. I would like to mention that, WE HAVE ENOUGH FUCKING RAIN NOW!!!!!!!!!!! I was looking forward to golfing today. Oh and I just read my birthday shirt from Leff's. Fuckers, lol

You walk in the room everyone will swoon Do they know what you do How you make your money They say everything in life has a price You said goodbye to your pride What is the price? What is the night? What is your life! What is the price? What is the night? What is your life! Dancing like everyone is looking Does your daddy know your hooking Selling your ride Thrills for a night They say everything in life has a price You said goodbye to your pride What is the price? what is the night? what is your life! What is the price? what is the night? what is your life! Can you put a price on your pride? Can you put a price on your life? Sleepless in the middle of the night Never think it will ever be right Dancing like everyone is looking Does your daddy know your hooking selling your ride thrills for a night What is the price? What is the night? what is your life! What is the price? What is the night? What is your.............LIFE!

I see a woman who has been beat Playing her silly games And she just dug herself in too deep To the point where she is going to leap There's a point, You don't know where you're going Theres a time When you'll need to stop playing This is it When you have been caught and you're going down You've dug a hole that is too deep Can barely crawl to the peak No way you'll be back on your feet You've dug a hole that is too deep Curl up like a baby and watch you weep You played the game Breaking too many hearts Girl, you have got to know You can't play both sides Or you will wind up in a spiral slide Down to hell where you fell Fire so hot, you feel the burning on your feet You've dug a hole that is too deep Can barely crawl to the peak No way you'll be back on your feet You've dug a hole that is too deep Curl up like a baby and watch you weep Oh, you are in way too deep You will never get back to your feet All you can do is weep Fire so hot, you feel the burning on your feet

You say that, It is different This time When you look up At me With your eyes.. I can see Something different You're leaving Never coming back I sit in this empty house That we used to call home All the pictures are gone All these nights seem so long There was nothing I could do Nothing I could say That would make you stay I made my mistake I grew tired I could not get through To see inside of you You tried to say You wanted me to help take the pain away But I could not see I wound up not to believe As I sit in this empty house That we used to call home All the pictures are gone All these nights seem so long Nothing I could do Nothing I could say That would make you stay I made my mistake

What you say, What you do Matters to me, has an effect on me Not that I can change What you say, don't you know Why you say what you do when you know it's not true why say you love me Why you say what you do Don't Say you love me When you know it's not true I am waking in the morning All alone in my bed Still seeing pictures of you, Stuck in my head I had never thought Your love could be bought So go on and make yourself believe It is normal for the heart to bleed Why you say what you do When you know it's not true Why you say you love me Why you say what you do Don't Say you love me When you know it's not true You know the bittersweet Seeing you on your feet When I saved you from being on the street Who was there, who is now What is there for us now? I had never thought Your love could be bought So go on and make yourself believe It is normal for the heart to bleed Why you say what you do When you know it's not true Why you say you love me Why you say what you do Don't Say you love me When you know it's not true

You ever make a decission that you regret? And we always say, "no regrets". I finally have one. Where I do regret a decission I made. I elected this year to eleviate a little extra BS from my life this year by turning over the Tuesday night softball team that I have been on for 16 years to a friend. I basically got sick of all the running around to get money and signatures. And then worry about who was going to be there and who was not. And we pretty much have the same team as we did last year. Less one player who does not play every week, only when deemed needed. Last nigt, I have to say that I suffered through the most disgusting loss in a softball game in my 20+ years of playing the sport. It is not like we were out hit. Or even out played. We were just pretty much dumb. I guess when they say a team takes on the personality of their manager. It is true. Because we are probably the nicest group of idiots you could ever imagine. So through some bad positioning decissions, and just pure suckiness. We lost, again. We have never lost 2 games in a year under my management. And there is no way we should have this year. The guys who shold place a little extra effort into their personal improvement. well, they don't, and they suck. I for some reason was able to maximize production from the shittiest of the shitty. And these people would come up with a big hit or play here and there. Nothing to be declared an all-star. But they just seemed to come up big when needed. This year, they all just suck. I would like to think it is all because of me. But I know it is not. I think that everyone just thought, well we had only lost 5 games in the last 5 years. All we have to do is show up, and we will win. Nope, not anymore. Everyone is gunning for us. Everyone gets up to play us. And well, we do not get up. I serious think that everyone thinks that it doesn't matter what they do, because our top guys will pick us up. But when we never get anything to swing at. It is up to you to do your job. Left bases loaded 5 of 6 innings. And had a runner on third every inning. We sucked. So enough with that. I want to say that I was wanting to regain control and salvage the season. But I think it is time I just let it be and see what people are really made of. So then to the bar last night. I was in a foul mood. Very foul mood. One of the guys from the team that just beat us by one run. Started talking shit about a guy who was playing right field. He kind of had two bad plays that cost us the game, but that is not the reason why we lost. But to sit there and talk shit about a guy who is playing in a social league to have fun. You don't kick a beaten dog. Especially when his big mean ass brother is right there all fired up and pissed off. So I stood up for the kid. cause I felt bad for him. He was beating himself up, and even was crying a little bit. I pulled him aside and said to just let it go. Cause it was a team lost. I mean we had 20 other fuck ups too. So I step in and demanded an apology, and when that was not coming, I politely said "Please get the fuck away then". Well another buddy steps up and gets in my face, and starts poking me in the chest. I gave what I thought was a light shove to get out of my face. Well, the kid went flying about 10 feet and wound up on his ass. I did feel bad about that. I really didn't mean to push that hard. So next thing I know I have like 5 people around me. The best quote of the night was from the bar manager."He said that people said i was about to get into a fight, and he was only worried about the 5 guys wanting to fight me" thanks for the props Mark. So all is calmed down, apologies are said, hand shakes were made. And then I listened to some one who had no business bagging go about his bragging. It was funny. So all the sudden, Bski is going off, and wanting to fight this other guy. Now if you know Bski, he is not a fighter, and takes a lot of shit with stride. But something made him snap at this guy. So I played, or should say I tried to be a peacekeeper, until little Andy Mann comes up and tells Bski to go kick the guys ass. So when the most mellow person in the bar is calling out for an asskicking. You know that the guy has it coming. So Again, I went to say my peace, cause the guy is talking all this shit. And I politley asked him to keep his comments to himself. And he did after our little talk. I think I delievered my point well. So after bar time, we all wound up outside. And almost again, shit started. But cooler heads prevaled. So Bski and I shot the shit for a little bit. And as I am walking to my car. The bartenders from the bar come out and wave me down. They mentioned that Andy was at George webbs, and had 3 guys trying to start a fight with him. So they asked me to come along for back up. So I did. Turns out I knew one of the guys. we used to work together at a bar as security. So he has actually seen me break up fights and finish fights. So this whole arguement started over MATC baseball. I am like, junior college baseball???? WTF was with people last night???? Myself included. Well, I guess you can say that some excitement came out rolling last night. Was not a boring evening. That is for sure. And for my last favorite scene last night. As we leave George Webbs. This kid that was trying to start the shit. After I had a slight comment whispered into his ear that made him shut up, well said something as I left. And as I turned to respond. I saw his buddy who I know, just railed him on the head. I figured, enough said. Peace, seriously, I mean Peace.

Another crazy day I pick you up I won't let you fall down Did you ever wonder Where it came from When you needed some one I was the one I was your Superman I was there to hold your hand I never meant it to be this way I tried not to stay But I got too close I'm feeling lost And I don't know why But when you look to the sky You would think I could fly I was there when you needed me Yet you watch me bleed Who is going to save? Though they say I am a man of steel No heart is made of steel And yet you managed to steal My heart away, I couldn't get away So who will save Superman He who gave Superman Who will save Superman I am falling down I feel like a clown Seems the higher I fly The harder I fall I walk alone My heart is stone I walk another day Cause you pushed me away Who will save Superman

Please answer and the repost in your blog so i can do the same 1. What would the child you once were think of the adult you have become? Duuude..... Sweeeet!!! I would seriously ask if it really possible to de-mature? 2. If you knew that there would be a nuclear war in one week, what would you do? There is a long list of who I would do. Then head north two days before. 3. After you die you are given the chance to be reborn as an animal, which animal would you chose?I would have to say.... A dog. 4. Given the ability to project yourself into the past but not return, would you do so? Where would you go? Selfish me says yes, July 16th 1990 5. Imagine you got hit by a car and could be saved only by a special operation. The operation would give you a normal, happy life, but would unfortunately cause you fifteen minutes of terrible, stabbing pain every morning when you awoke. Would you want to have the operation? I have 5 minutes now, so what is 10 more? 6. If you could wake up tomorrow having gained any one ability or quality, what would it be? Got to go with superman powers 7. After you die, you are given a chance to be reborn and chose your gender. Would you be the same sex you are now? I would be a woman, and a lesbian 8. If you could pick any age and stay there for the rest of your life, what age would you pick? 31 9. Should animals be used for medical research? yes 10. What are some of the things you would do if you could become invisible whenever you wanted to? Well, I guess I would perfect my perv skills, and be a crime buster too. 11. Would you like your spouse to be both smarter and more attractive than you? All depends on the common sense level 12. If you could replace reality with the world as it is on any current TV show, which would you choose? Which character would you be? Friends, and Ross, Jennifer, yeah baby 13. Would you feel unfaithful if you had frequent fantasies about someone other than your partner? If your partner were having such fantasies, would you want to know about it? No/no 14. How many beauty / health products do you use on a daily basis? 3 15. What is the most important thing you’ve accomplished in your life? I haven't killed any stupid people 16. What was your most disastrous trip or vacation? The trip to Canada where I got arrested 17. If you could choose only four things to eat or drink ever again, what would they be? Water, diet Dew, Steak, and Watermelon 18. What was the most recent movie you cried at? NONE 19. A person you don’t particularly like has food stuck between his teeth. Do you tell him? Hell no 20. After your death, an author will write your biography. What will the title be? Wasted years 21. If you could script the basic plot for the dream you will have tonight, what would the story be? Me, a woman, romance, happily ever after 22. What is one vacation destination that many people think is fabulous, but which you personally have no desire to ever visit (or revisit)?Bahamas 23. An eccentric millionaire offers to donate a large sum to charity if you will walk down a busy street - completely naked - for four blocks. There is no danger of being arrested, or physical abuse, would you do it?Hell yeah, I am my favorite Charity 24. How do you picture your funeral? Is it important for you to have people mourn your death?Celebrate my life. There better be one hell of a party. I want drunkeness and nakedness 25. What things are too personal to discuss with others? My emotions

Like a razors edge Cutting through my heart again Like a brass pole and an empty hole Something that is found between your.... I find myself Trapped in a corner Like the butterfly cacoon wrapped again I have always found it better To keep to myself and not be bitter And I let you in And you tore right through Cutting my heart again The walls fallen again Cold hearted bitch It is like a switch Razorblade love Getting nothing done Stone hearted is what they say It is from all the games you play You reel them in It is like second natured sin Like a Wisconsin january morning This is you in your glory Cold as ice You are nothing close to nice I find myself Trapped in a corner again Like the butterfly cacoon wrapped again I have always found it better To keep to myself and not be bitter And let you in You tore right through again Cutting my heart again The walls fallen again cold hearted bitch It is like a switch Razorblade love Getting nothing done

Monday morning, Wake from my sleep Read the news, making people weep What has this place come to Why does it come down to you... Another sunrise Another day Life loves a tragedy I wake up, and see you are gone I knew we have been hangin on too long It never did seem right Never slept through a night I would open my eyes See you in the window Looking out with tears in your eyes I would always wonder why you cry Was it something I did Something I said I am not sure I want you to walk away Another sunrise another day life loves a tragedy Was it something I did Something I said I am not sure I want you to walk away Life loves a tragedy If I knew, what you kept inside If I knew, you wanted to die If I knew...... I am sure I would had held you as you cry Feeling helpless, feeling nothing The pain inside of you I am not sure it was true Another sunrise another day life loves a tragedy