Forgivenbadboy's blog: "Flashback (LSD Daze)"

I Just wanna Say Before you Read this
That this was for the most part over 25yrs ago
& I've never Done Heroin or Needles

I Remember Sitting in Jr. High in a Science Class
watching a Film Designed To Scare us away from doing Drugs,
I explicitly remember the scene where a Guy takes LSD looks in a Mirror
see's himself as a Ware wolf & Runs out to the second story Balcony & Jumps off

Fast Forward..... I Don't Remember what Grade,
Not Junior Year cause I'd Smoked pot as a Sophomore
I Kinda didnt Like it cause it made me feel dull stupid & Boring
(That was before I Discovered High Grade Indica, Fallbrook Ses. & what-not)
So Me and a friend Had quit pot for our Junior year
somewhere in late High School I Discovered Whites(beanies, Speed) for the 1st time
I wanted to Run Faster Jump Higher, Be more alert
so at least a senior, & maybe even after Graduation, That Summer
I Took my 1st hit of LSD, I Believe it was Orange Sunshine...

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I started out w/ just a 1/2 hit to be safe & cause I was leary, (but not timothy Leary) Hahaha,
but the 1st 1/2 hit seemed fine
so probably about an hr later I took the other 1/2.
(Acid Takes a long to to take effect, Like an hr)



We went to Balboa Peninsula, w/ Lots of people & Had the time of My Life,
Nothing we did was wrong, everything worked out, as if we were one w/ mother earth
everybody Loved us & we Loved everybody we couldn't do wrong, we just had a hell of a good time,
it felt like we'd taking Smart pills & I remember the alcohol did not make us Drunk at all,
but contributed to the buzz
we were Smiling so Hard all My Cheeks Hurt
Their is a certain connection you feel w/ the other other ppl on it
while on it & ya seem to feel it & know it at a glance

Everything was more Vivid, not Psychedelic like I'd seen in simulations
I mean colors were more crystal Clear than ever , but not fuzzy
I'm a Teenager, I wanted to know everything, even Spiritual
I wished I'd known what I will tell you towards the end of this Blog

hmmmm,

but where was the ware wolfs, the scare, the evil,
someone had Lied to me & it was them, the system, authority, the "Smart" people,
they cant be trusted, they lied & this is Fun (Thats what I Thought) I remember
It was a Blast & I Loved it, I was gonna do it again & again & even sell it to afford it
& get other people to experience this Great euphoric feeling yep, & I Did ......
But whata bout those "Bad Trips" I heard about ...
I never Saw pink elephants or Potato chips Dancing
In all my Acid trip Days, I only had 2 Friends that said they did lol

well OK I didnt do a lotta Lotta trips,
& what I mean by that is as in it wasnt an everyday thing
& or even every weekend, but certain special Parties & Concerts(Not all)
maybe going to the mountains(not every time)
but occasionally yep we'd do it
& It seemed good, I Liked the Exploration of Spirt & Mind aspect of it
a Tree of Knowledge & besides it was fun,
it was often different I thought it opened that part of ur mind you never used
ya know, when they say you only use like 6 percent of your Brain, well not on LSD,
it felt like it Got a bunch of the rest of it going ... yep & we even Dubbed it "Smart Pills"
Very euphoric , made me feel invincible & on top of the world

I even got pulled over once after Going Backwards in my 67 SS super sport red camero w/ big fat tires & everything at about 45 miles per hr & spun it around w/o stopping to go the other way w/ a carload of Party friends (a Turn about my friends called it)
Right in Front of the Cop, i was famous for it ;)

well,
I got out of the car talked to the cop & dont remember what I said exactley,
but he got back in his patrol car after I did All the talking & left ... go figure

I Must admit while on it,
I frequently felt like something spiritual was on my side (or should I say "With me")


I remember my 1st so called "Bad Trip" not that bad ,
but one time at a Halloween party,
I dunno, it was just racing to hard
& I Didn't know how to act

(like kinda self conscious & to much to think about to deal w/ everyday conversation),

so a friend went w/ me & parked down the street to mellow chill & talk myself down, no biggy ,
but it was the 1st time i didnt wanna interact w/ people so much
kinda like to many thoughts to deal w/ them

On another time we went to go snow skiing & the LSD got wet
We'd ate a hit, 4 ppl, me my best friend ,the girl he ended up marrying & my Date,
An all CIF Cross Country Runner Gal(Sherri) from a very well to do Family,
well we thought it didnt work cause it got wet so we split the remaining like 18 hits & took em all
(didnt want it to go to waist since it got wet)
Ohhhhhhhh Man, trippy night,
I dont have time here to give all details
but I didnt like being not so much "Outta control" so to speak but a lil' paranoid
(wouldnt of wanted to sit Down at a family thanksgiving Dinner, thats for sure

& we were in the worst snow storm I ever been in
& everybody insisted on following us
a group of four teenagers really (I may have been 20-21)
so down the mountain
we went, couldn't see past our hood
(& we were in a Van) lol, yeah we pulled over & no one would go ahead of us, we even got out & kicked the tires so they would go by
Everybody pulled over & just sat there waiting for us, like 20 cars
we coulda drove off the edge (Were were Frying on Acid) lol
but I think cause we were in the van everyone wanted us to go 1st (shorter Hood to look past)
we crept along like 2 miles per hour w/ our noses to the window looking for the road & the edge
Everything was just white
so anyways a multi hit Acid freak i didn't become, but that was one time I did many hits & just wish we woulda not had to go home while still on it
which Me & Sherri put off as Long as we could, but It Got late & we both lived w/ our parents :/

At yet another Halloween party, uh hu, hmmmm Halloween,
"Purple Haze" I think
I was having an awesome time, Me & a best friend were the Wild & Crazy Guys from Saturday night Live & we were a Hit,

everybody was ROTFLTFAO & again we couldn't do wrong,
unrehearsed & got lots of complements,
People were Ramping & Raveing on how Good we were
I remember when I had 1st walked in the Door
& made Eye Contact w/ my Best Gal Pal at the time
& the 1st thing she said was,"What are you on, I want some"

Later after a Grand Entrance & Show
I sat down for a mellow game of chess about 1/2 way through the party & NO WAY,
mind was to racing & covering to many subjects
Acid is an upper, keep you up long time & very energetic, I'd say more Amping than Speeding though
I needed some space & went down the street & was sitting just looking at the sidewalk when I had my 1st so called hallucination, But this was NOT a hallucination,
this was real I know,
I saw a super Demonic Holographic form of some sorta Demonic Emblem,
about a 2 foot circumference Lots of Purple & Black, but Multi Colored
kinda like something you'd expect to see in a witches supply store on the wall or something,
Very Detailed & saw it w/ my Eyes, on the sidwalk as I was looking Down
I might recognize it if I saw the exact one today ,
& it scared me a lil, I jumped up & scurried back to the safe party,
later on, we were at Jack in the Box sitting in the parking lot & a Van Halen song came on I'm pretty sure "Running w/ the Devil" & a misty , oh so very misty rain started coming down ever so slowly & w/ the Parking Lot Lights just rt,
it wasnt pitch Dark & the Most Beautiful Dancing Waters/Light Show I ever saw came to life in that same Holographic form as earlier that Night Bitchen Azz Colors & going Perfectly to the music...
The Actual Water intermingling w/ the Spiritual Holographic Light Vision
Not as Psycodelic as this pic. but simular Colors & much more organized & Beautiful

I Sat there Looking at it Saying to my Friends, Oh man, if you Guys could see what I am seeing Now...
I Now Believe this was all Very Satanic Though
I didnt so much put it together at the time, but Satan's invitations were in the midst,
(Later in Life I would get More Direct invitations)
The For Sure Evil Emblem Earlier Scared me,
But I was serving Satan(inadvertently) & he was like, no, not evil, beautiful,... Acid is good.,
(Running w/ the Devil I was) well At the time I just thought I was Cool & privileged to see such a show,
The Beautiful Show distracted me from the Scary Emblem Earlier, Cause I didn't know Satan can be an Angel of Light
I always thought Everything of Satan was evil ugly & Scary.
But I did take back all the Pot I had I was selling to my Drug Dealer the next Day, saying ya Know,
I never Dreamed of Growing up & becoming a Drug Dealer & I don't wanna be that ,
My Friend was cool & took it back, it was where our Halloween party had been,
& we affectionately, comically called it, "The Last House on the Left" arnt we just the cutest
(it was the year that movie came out)
& it was, it was the last house on the left, but we never thought ourselves evil,
we were just kids having a good time, parting up life Not hurting no one
& certainly not Devil worshipers yuk, I didn't even know if the Devil existed
& would say if he does, God does & If they do, I'm on Gods side
or was I :/

I did LSD & Acid & Mushrooms some more times after that

but after noticing an increase in Trips that i included Paranoia, more often & closer together, It just sorta seemed to Drop off, Like it was time to Quit & really I didnt say OMG I'm gonna quit,
I just sorta lost interest & it was the easiest Drug to quit,
I was just starting in on the cocaine craze & Then
I found My Friend for the next 12 plus years after that "Crystal Meth"& Boy was she ever Fun !!!
Cost less & last Longer than Cocaine too
Sin is Fun ! ,
The Bible even Says it's Fun

If the only sin was eating shit
it wouldn't be tempting & what kinda love would we be showing God by repenting from doing it

Oh did I forget something, yeah ... For a season
"Sin is Fun For a Season"

& Satan is the Principality & Power of the Air Right now
The Bible says that too

For so many things God Has, Satan Has the Counterfeit

It says in Galatians 5;19 a slew of stuff that if we practice such things
we will not inherit the kingdom of God

in that list of things in your english Bible it will say witchcraft or sorcery
& that word in the Greek is "Pharmacia"

Thats where we get or word pharmaceuticals from
we practice a form Of witchcraft & sorcery under the guise of Party etc.

Before my career being a puppet of Satan was over

I seen the Spirit world a few more times

But this time it was Full Blown Demons w/ a minds eye not mattering if my eyes were open or closed & I was Looking at them seeing them & Feeling them,they were in some sorta chant or something I believe to posses me, & in fact Had the so called "Eternal bright Light" that many hippies used to purposefully try to achieve,
But this light come at me w/ an invite that I got scared & rejected (Thank God)

& at the timer I just thought if that woulda hit me something bad woulda happened but I didn't know what
I thought maybe Die or someting

only Latter to be reading a testimony of Mike Mackintosh of Calvary San Diego Talking about this light(describing it) being a Gateway to possession
& as I was reading it, KNOWING , thats the Bad thing that woulda happened to me

I also had audible comunication w/ the spirit world at times
but they lied as to who they were
The Good news is,
I Lived through all this & another story bout all my Near Deaths thats sends chills up my spine cause I'd Gone to Hell Only cause I Didn't have Jesus

But Now I do & God uses me
& I still sin, But I just sin less

But I Do Believe I'm Saved
Covered in the Blood of the Lamb

& a bit familiar w/ a few of Satan's ole tricks

I have been involved NOT BY CHOICE in one exorcism & never wanna again,
But this stuffs real
& I wrote this blog starting out to say
Dont lie about Drugs
they are fun , but only for a season

But they are Satanic & God says if you practice such things
You will not inherit the kingdom of God

& if ya see Crystal meth, Dont Bring her by

I sorta gotta Love Hate relationship w/ her & don't ever wanna see her again
I'll share about her if so led another time