Damncupid widow of nameless1's blog: "me myself and damncupid"

I sit here thinking of you, and all that we have been through, and i wonder if it is worth all the pain. if i should let my self care again, if i should let you back in my life. to take a chance that you will rip my heart in two .. twice. when i look in your eyes i want to say yes its worth it, but when you are not there , i begin to doubt , and believe i am being a fool. Is love really worth  all that i have seen and gone through , should i really trust you?  what was that song... " i aint missing you at all... i can lie to myself ". laughs , i do miss you , and yes i am lying to myself , that i wouldnt run back in a heart beat , but my fear is will i keep running back everytime , you rip my heart out. have i fallen that hard to be the biggest fool of all?   laughs i guess i will see soon enough if , i did fall , and just how deep .

You body brushing against mine as we dance to music in our minds, just swinging softly as we touch, the feelings you bring out of me , with just a look. a soft kiss from your lips , makes me want to beg, for more than you offer, and moan with my pleasure. i want so much to feel your hands slide sown my body, touching exploring me , searching out all my secrets. as i look in your eyes i know that i put a fire in your soul, that i make you burn like no other can. that at this moment i am all you ever wanted. as i place little kisses down your chest and slowly undress you, i am as powerful as a goddess to control your desire for me , to blow it into flames that lick your soul....the more i want to be that goddess in reality, just for you., as your lips met mine, i can only hear your song .

aww how my heart aches at the thought of your hands on my body touching , carassing me , till im your slave for eternity , i need your love , i need your kisses , to feel your lips on my body , your hands roaming , making me beg for you to stay , love me honey , for eternity i will beg for you to stay , dont make me fight to have your touch . i will kill for you , to keep you as my love to keep you holding me , i can not stop wanting you to be only mine to feel you complete me , in all ways . i love you till heel and heaven unite , or split , but im always yours my heart , my love,  my angel of darkness , the dragon of my soul , i cant live without you touching me in some way . how am i suppose to keep breathing without you , i just wnat to curl up and die love , i miss how you touch me with such passion , how you touch and tasted me , made me beg for you ...show how i am to go on without all you gave me or showed me in the name of love . i can not be alone with out you anymore , i can not do it any longer , i need you by my side to hold me to love me..to be mine eternity. so i ask you to keep me eternity love , will you ??????

 if i could find a way to make the skies seems less gray, i would show your heart a new way to fell the love around you each day...... i dont want to ever see you crying , it rips my heart and makes me feel like dying..... im just to far away to say come home , my arms are always open..... all i can do is say im trying

rainmaker

so many times you have tried to break my will , kill my desire to rip out what is left of my heart. through words you steal  happiness , through actions you try to hurt, but honey i keep telling you, nothing will ever make me stop caring , stop wanting you completely. i have tried over and over to make you see that you worth the world to me , more than anything other than my kids who are part of me. with out you in my life some way , some how , its not worth living. you think you will hurt me if we are together but you hurt me by being apart. you are where i want to be , where i always will want to be , there in your arms. you know sprout looks up to you , and cares for you too. and my youngest will in time if you let her. why do you run from happiness why do you think you dont deserve it, why let that bitch ruin you , with words , and actions, let it go. reach out and grab life love..... stop closing the door in its face.

how at times i see the world , may shock others . i seewhat is inside instead of out , i jupersonality who they are, and how close i should let them get. it usually only takes a second for me to know if i want to stay talking or run . sadly not many see me for who i am inside , they just see a shell . Im not beautiful but not ugly , im not sjinny ...no biggie. i just some would understand that going by the outside , is like looking at the cover of a book and saying you read it. what is inside of my closest friends in fubar .... pure beauty... so pure , sometimes i have to close my eyes. but even they can be blind to what in going on in my life. that is enough thoughts for now , leave another later

i find it romantic , but some may just find it sappy...

Honestly
I believe in you
Do you trust in me?

Patiently
I will stand by you
I will stand beside you faithfully

And through the years
I will be a friend for always and forever

Call on me and I'll be there for you
I'm a friend who always will be true
And I love you can't you see
That I can say I love you honestly

Call on me and I will be there for you
I'm a friend who will always be true
And I love you can't you see
That I love you honestly
I will never betray your trust in me
And I love you can't you see
That I can say I love you
Honestly

this is lyrics to a song , but if you know me than you know im a hopeless romantic.

It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
Try as I may
I could never explain
What I hear when
You don't say a thing

[CHORUS:]
The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all

All day long
I can hear people
Talking out loud
But when you hold me near
You drown out the crowd
(The crowd)
Try as they may
They could never define
What's been said
Between your
Heart and mine

[Repeat chorus twice]

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know
That you need me

[Repeat chorus]

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

The smile on your face
The truth in your eyes
The touch of your hand
Let's me know
That you need me

(You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all)

razors ripping thru my soul

killin me slowly

i dont want to live

i dont want to care

someone please end it for me

i am a fucking fool

who only loses at love

an idiot, who doesnt get it

trash you leave on the curb

so please will you not? kill me

you suck out my soul

make me want you

all i think of

all i want

i need and crave

your my addiction

my drug, im dying without you

so please stop my pain

pull the plug

undo my brain

let me die

 let me cry

i dont want to be alone

here without you