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One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the old donkey. He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down. A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up! As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off! Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a stepping stone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up. Remember the five simple rules to be happy: 1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive. 2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happen. 3. Live simply and appreciate what you have. 4. Give more. 5. Expect less NOW --------THE HUMOR OF IT ALL..... The donkey later came back, and bit the dickens out of the farmer who had tried to bury him. The gash from the bite got infected, and the farmer eventually died in agony from septic shock. MORAL FROM TODAY'S LESSON: When you do something wrong, and you try to cover your ass, it always comes back to bite you.

my heart hurts today, I think iam in love , but then again maybe iam not i feel like iam putting in all the work my mind hurts I can figure it out why iam in love with some whom its not going to work why is it ok for me to be so exhusted and your sleeping? why is it that i want to take your last name and be able to share the glory and the sorrow. i want to have more babies and you look at me like iam a fool but you know what they say your just a fool you know you in love.!!!!! my heart hurts i think iam in love but then again maybe not

i just wanted to let you know if you read my blogs a lot of em are when I am having the worst times in my life I dont remember being so dark or dramtic but i guess i look at em now and i realize they were therapy so thanks for your support i appreciate it

i watched you as you ripped out my heart and ate it in front of me you stomped on my emotions all while i am trying not to cry..... You were the posion I had enjected into my own vains this time hoping I would come out clean and now I feel i continue to dive further into the muck with no hope of coming out prestine it took me losing everything in a matter of moments to once again realize what is important and to realize yes when i am gone the world does continue to turn and people go on about their lives a harsh reality of which i come to face and from one which i hide in my bed like a fucking coward just leave me alone and walk away before you see me cry you broke my heart just leave the peices so i can mend em on my time hiding away from the sun

this one is a very personal one i wrote oct 21 st this year God iam going to ask a lot of questions Why did you abondon me in my biggest time of need? why when i reached for you did you just turn around and walk away from me? God if you dont give us much more then we can handle how could i lose everything within a matter of days and weeks? God the only thing left is me and this house and soon to be my loud solutude. it will scream at me how alone in this cold cruel world i really am and why god am i still praying that you will come and hold me? come and comfort me instead of making me beg for you just to make me completely insane, so i dont feel this awful pain this demon that continues to well up inside of me why god do i believe that you will bring me out of this state of mind when in 21 years you have not made it better instead making it worse making me believe what a terriable person i really am seeing this monster in the mirror instead of the lovely person i thought i was and god why am crying while i write this being in pain and not knowing if i want to see the dawn? not knowing that iam going to be okay and not knowing where my son is going to be? God is he going to be alright? god i cant handle this and i cant give this to you because youll just tell me to deal with it the same as you always have iam in pain god and why do you laugh at me? what have i done to deserve this god? Fuck you god the only reason why i dont just run this damn razor now is not knowing where my son will be and damn you on that making me all alone sad and in pain making me cry and beg and hurt

MEDIOCRE MINDS "Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds" - Albert Einstein As I was thinking about what to share this week I glanced at one of the two pictures of Einstein that hang on my office wall. As I began to think about this incredible truth that I have read so many times, I once again realized how important it is to fully understand. Most of us surround ourselves with individuals who support us in staying the way we are. The unfortunate truth is that when you decide to become a great spirit -- to pursue a great adventure -- many of the people around you will not support you. Often with good intention they will tell you familiar things like "be realistic," "slow down -- take your time," "be careful," or "don't do anything rash." I have found that, "When you pursue greatness, you represent the courage that others don't have." (That sentence is important -- please read it again until you FULLY understand it.) Consequently, when you succeed, they can no longer tell themselves and others their own "good stories" about why they don't succeed. You break through their excuses for staying in an unfulfilled or dissatisfied life. For this reason, it is absolutely imperative that you surround yourself with great spirits -- continually! Like-minded individuals who have the same vision and are going the same places you are going. People who believe in you, support you, sometimes even push you. One of the greatest decisions I made several years ago was that "I would no longer spend quantity time with people that I did not want to become." This is one of the most difficult decisions I have ever made -- and also one of the most powerful. I looked at the crowd I was spending time with and they were great people; and yet, they were not going in the same direction as me. They did not have the same goals for their life. The same passion. I realized that they were holding me back. I still love them, care for them, communicate with them, but no longer spend a major portion of my time with them. Who do you have in your life that may be holding you back? Who can you begin to spend more quality and quantity time with that is going in the same direction as you? Who do you know that is passionate? Who do you know that is committed to greatness? It has been said that 5 years from today you will be the same person as today...with 2 exceptions: 1. The books you read, tapes you listen to, seminars you attend. 2. The people that you spend the majority of your time with. This is no dress rehearsal -- this is your life -- the real deal! Remember that. And as you do, be outstanding -- live with passion -- and make your life magnificent!

here i sit i sit here all alone iam tierd and cold there is no one to hold there are no more sweet embrasses just old lovers and their faces there are no more passionate kisses just broken dreams and wishes there is no more love making only the sound of my heart breaking I only wish i could figure out how to put the pieces back together but to them it does not matter the tears i shed tonight i lay all alone here in bed

Why did you come to my door today? Why did you feel it nessary to make me hurt that way? All those emotions that i tried to cover All i want them to do is smother like puppies who have no mother I just want to throw them in a pillowcase I just want them to die....sufficate the way you made me feel all these years. By instilling all those fears. I dont know what you want I have any more tears I dont know why you dropped by today I dont know why you insist upon huring me that way why didnt i take my bag of emotions to the lake and drown em? why have i held on to them and why did you knock on my door today?