42 Year Old
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Female
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From Arlington, IL·
Joined on October 14, 2008
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Relationship status: Single
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Born on December 18th
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I have a crush on someone and 2 different people have a crush on me!
42 Year Old
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Female
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From Arlington, IL·
Joined on October 14, 2008
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Relationship status: Single
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Born on December 18th
·1 referrals joined!
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I have a crush on someone and 2 different people have a crush on me!
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42 Year Old
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Female
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From Arlington, IL·
Joined on October 14, 2008
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Relationship status: Single
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Born on December 18th
·1 referrals joined!
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I have a crush on someone and 2 different people have a crush on me!
Today is"SEXYFRIEND" day and baby you know you are sexy! Send this to all ur sexy friends (even me) if you get:1 - Your ugly2 - ok3 - damn4 - wow5 - fine6 - sexy as HELL7 -"friendship with benefits" cute8 -"rip my eyes out" your to hot9 - def hit that10 - dyme piece
Well here goes i know some things are suppost to be left at good enough but i was the one to never leave good enough alone that just my style. So i am tellin you this in front of everyone because i have nothing to hide so here goes... PLZ CLICK PLAY BEFORE READING MORE PLZ!
Before we broke up things seemed to be just magical and i knwo you know what i mean and when we had that last conversation i thought i said everything that needed to be said but you know how that shit goes you end up thinking about it and the next thing you know you are sitting there wishing you had said other things you forgot well i am a victim of that and i have a few things i would like to say. For starters victoria i still love you with all my heart and i know the decisions you made were the ones for the better for your kids. I just went by the things you told me on our late night conversations and all the other times we had. I really hope this never comes as a regret for you because i wish you the best i really do. The first thing i said to you when we met was i would rather have you happy and not be with me then to be with me and not be happy well see thats where the problem arose. You were happy with me and with Bob. I know you made some hard decisions and i had a feeling it might have came down to this but you know i never thought i would end up with you being happy and not be in yoru life at all.
But that does not mean i am not in your heart because i know without a doubt i am and will be there for all eternity. But you reminded me of what it feels like to be truely loved and you were there through the toughest of times and i guess it awakened the inner me and made me more open to the world. And i thank you for that because if it had not been for you none of this would have been possible. I remember us joking saying we were the next bonnie and clyde cause if we ever did meet and get together we would be one hell of a couple of hellraisers. I haven;t talked to you in 4 days but who's counting well to be honest i am and it feels liek ti has been weeks even months and with every passing day I see how the 14th of NOV is gettin closer and i think or try to imagine how excited and happy i would be if i was actually goin to see you. I try and make myself believe this was all for the better but as hard as i try i can not emotionally grasp that feeling yet. So anyways we finally got the snow i was dreading yup 3feet overnight and it blows lol. But i will take some pics and post it on here for you in a slide show so you can at least beable to see what a true Northern New York winter looks like and the sad part this is only the beginning of it. I find my self doing things i did while wa talking to you like chillin at college and in the basement while talking ot you on one of our 4hr phone conversations and believe me i do miss them deeply. BUt you wana knwo the ironic part right after everythign happened when i got home dad was gone and now i have no limitations lol who'd a thunk it ya know"irony it will bit you in the ass every time" But i do hope this letter does not bother you too muchyou can delete it i will understand but i want you to knwo i check my phone everyday in hope you called me and rush to fubar just to see if you left me a message. And i know you don't think of me as a stalked just bec
ause you knwo me the real me and you knwo what kind of person i am and for those of you reading try to imagine a soul mate or the love of yoru life right in front of you through a pc screen soo close yet soo far 4 states over 15hrs and 31 min drive and 936miles away. Some things always seem soo close but when you think about it they are the furthest thing from you. And you may wonder well hwo does he know she was is soul mate well when she pretends to hug me or looks at me on cam i can feel it as if she were in the same room doing it so you know that has to mean something. So victoria i have said my final say and i understand if you don't wana reply because i don;t expect you to this was just some things i had to say to get off my chest and i hope it lets you know just how much of a difference you made in my life. And btw with the status message i am missing you too. And i will and always will love youw ith every beat of my heart.Your's Truely:-*Jason Dancause (AKA: Black widow)
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