how is it possile to run so well off 2 hrs sleep n no other source to keep you awake. it's 5 am now i should be sleeping but i can't life has been so shitty since i lost my job. the only thing i have going for me is i finally met the man of my dreams but he lives so far away. he's everything i've ever wanted. i'm starting to think when i get my tax money back i should just pack up my car n move to nc. i can make it for o month on my tax money n in that time i could find a job n and appartment. i need to do something i can't be left alone with my thoughts any more. i'm getting suicidal again. n i don't want to be. good i'm rambling. thanx for taking time to step inside my mind
