I am a single mother & a part time CNA doing in-home care with elderly/disabled. I'm also trying to get my degree online in PhotographyI take pride in being a bit different than everyone else I know. I don't like "normal" things and honestly don't care if others think I'm weird. I am who I am and I'm proud of being me!!! Ive been through so much crap in my life its not even close to being funny! People I love seem to love hurting me. I let people get close to me then they break my heart. I still consider myself one of those rare and truly good at heart people though. I try to help anyone and everyone I can. I try to be as good a person as possible. Its hard sometimes. Like when those you love stab you in the back or take advantage of your kindness. But you gotta look at the good in every situation. If you focus on the bad you'll be a miserable person. I tend to be a in the moment type of person. I could have been in a bad mood ten minutes ago; but if something good is going on right now, im happy right now. I try not to dwell on the past. Its the past for a reason. Its already happened and theres nothing you can do to change it. So it's just better to look at whats happening right now.Its pretty much the only way Ive been able to survive this long. Id have gone crazy or killed someone by now if I didn't think like this. Too many people Ive loved have hurt me worse than anyone should be hurt.This year has literally been THE WORST YEAR of my entire life. I have lost so much and realized how despicable people really are... no matter how long you've known them. Hopefully someday Ill have someone I can truly trust...Is there anyone decent left out there?