Ok so I just got home from visiting you. And it was exactly what I needed. I think I can finally put this behind me and be ok and happy with moving on. I'm sorry that I've held onto this anger I've had with you for so long. I really am. I'll never forget, but I think I might be able to forgive. It was good talking to you today. Thanks for listening, if you were. I'm sure you were somehow.
I'm supposed to visit you tomorrow. I don't know how I'm going to be able to do it. I know I should have already, but I haven't been able to bring myself to do it. And honestly, i'm only doing it because Emily is forcing me to do it. Maybe she's right that I need that closure with you. But I still don't know how I'm going to be able to manage. I am going to apologize now for the things I'm going to probably end up saying to you. Because I know my anger will probably get the best of me tomorrow.
I know everything that happened was my fault. I know that everything happened because of what I did... I just wish there was a way you could forgive me.
