Earlier today I was in such a great mood. I did not realize the date until I called my mom and she told me to say a prayer for my dad. I sat and thought about it. Today is April 22nd. He died 7 years ago today.
While I did pray I felt horrible for almost forgetting. I felt guilty as though I had forgotten my father and the memories I had of him. Right now I am sitting here just reflecting and I miss that man. He was such an amazing father and such a great husband to my mother.
This day when we lost him I shall never forget it for so many reasons...but mainly what plays in my mind is how cold he felt when I said goodbye to him and I saw the life leaving his body and he got that pale color soulless bodies take on as a person dies.
I remember wondering what we were going to do now that he is no longer with us. I still have days where I wonder how we are able to make it. I look at my mom and wonder how she must feel to have lost him.
Rest in Peace Dad, Jesus Lopez, known as Jesse to many and Big Jes to others but to me he was Dad...he was more than just my father, he was the rock of the family, the glue that made our family stay together. He was my support during so much and I miss him to where there are days I wish he could answer questions I have. I hope he is in peace right now.
I love you Dad. We all miss you.
I know you are with your parents and your brother and two sisters but there are times we all wish you were still here with us. Soon we will all be together again.
God Bless you.
