IF WHAT I SAY ALIENATES YOU THAT ONLY MEANS YOU'RE ALIEN TO ME. YOU AND YOUR FRAGILE REALITY, YOU MILD DISSATISFACTION, YOUR ARTIFICIAL SUBTLETY. I LOVE THE WAY YOU LOOK AT ME; YOUR WELL REHEARSED DISBELIEF. THE TRUTH HURTS WHEN IT CATCHES UP AND BITES YOU ON THE THROAT. AND I WILL TELL IT EVERY TIME. NOTHING WILL INCINERATE MY VISION. NOTHING WILL STOP ME...I WANT MY SKIN TO TERN TO LETHER. I WANT THE ELEMENTS TO TAKE THEIR TOLL ON MY BODY. I WANT ALL MUTILATION, TATTOOING AND OTHER BODILY DAMAGE TO BE DEEP. I WANT TO WALK ALONE IN THE DESERT.I WANT TO WALK ALONE IN THE STEAMING JUNGLE. IF THE RIDE BECOMES SMOOTH, ILL CREATE CATASTROPHES TO KEEP IT ROUGH. I WANT TO CLAW FORWARD. THE PAST IS MY ENEMY.THE PRESENT IS ALL THERE IS FOR ME. I WANT TO LOVE COMPLATLY. I WANT TO HATE BEYOND CONVICTION. I CRAVE DEEP BREATHS THAT FEEL LIKE INHALING FIRE. I WILL NEVER RUN FROM PAIN. IM CRAWLING IN ABSOLUTE DARKNESS, UNDERGROUND, WAITING FOR THE SUMMER HEAT TO DRAG ME AWAY INTO THE DEPTHS OF MADNESS. EVERY YEAR THE PHOSPHESCENT SUMMER COMES BURNING LIKE A HELL HOUND ON MY TRAIL. IT STICKS ITS THUMBS THROUGH MY COLLAR BONE AND SHAKES ME SENSLESS, AND I DANCE, SWEATING, CLENCHED AND JOINTLESS. IM WATING TO SWING AND DANCE AND SWEAT AND SCREM......Without my Cyclops vision,Perverse dreamsAnd poetic flirtations,OrPeriodic stumbles,Disintegrations,Transparent confabulations,Murky revelations,Metaphorical ablations,AndClairvoyant obfuscations,I would, I fear,Only beMechanical inhalations. >This growl wells up insideA monster grows as it feeds on the emotion I hideIt stares out the windows of my soulTo the cold outside... Where all is criticismAnd where hate will never subsideIt digs its claws into my soul, tearing it up from the insideIt destroys pieces of me each day, with certain people I collideIt howls in frustrationPrayer, psychology just doesn't seem the salvationAs it simply wants outAll it wants to do is rain genocide, cause helplessness and despairIt would even be my mental relief From my pent up rage and painBut my conscience gets to meI'm stuck in this manifestationThis monsters still lurks within meStill stares out the windows of my soulJust waitingWaiting for the day someone pushes a bit to hard