September 07, 2006, 01:11:am
I'm in a rather odd mood tonight. I have no idea what-so-ever whats gonna come out of these fingers but I need to write. Might be another book length entry, might only be a few paragraphs. Ya never know with me lol.
Have you ever wished things in your life would have been different but at the same time you'd never change it? I'm in this bit of a quandry. I hate how my life has been but I'd not change it for the most part.
I bet you may be thinking if this is supposed to be a journal concerning my path to getting thin again, you must remember one thing. Our lives affect us completly, totally and utterly. Every little thing that has happend in my life has lead to this quest to be thin again. Notice I don't use the word skinny. Goddess, I hate that word lol. I don't want to be skinny. I want my curves, not bones protruding.
Anywho, pulling another SideTrackedKatt ;)
I've no clue why my mood is so strange. Its like I'm trapped but at the same time clawing my way out of something. So hard to explain *sighs. I can't shake the feeling something is going to happen soon and I don't mean the stomach surgery I want. Part of me thinks it may be dealing with my studies towards becoming a Shaman.
I dunno. And I've lost the urge to write tonight. Guess I'll shut up and write more later.
