A Fool In Love
Have you ever been afraid of feeling more than you should?
Or more than you believed or conceived that you could...
It's the little things in life that help you touch the sky
Living moment to moment... too many loves gone by
The past built a sea around me of "could have been" sorrows
Filled with empty "I love you"s and "I'll call you tomorrow"s
Then the sound of solitude becomes a cry for help...
have been a hermit crab too many times in my life!!!
My heart is hopeful that THIS time, it's all true
and THIS time it will be beautiful, gentle, and smooth
and THIS time I've found my best friend, my soul mate and lover.
So please, ...come to me in silence
and when the time comes for us to be in the eye of a storm...
Lay with me in a whisper, and listen to the warmth
There has never been a smile in my memory
that came as easily, nor was as meant from my heart and soul
... as this one ... as when you're with me in peacefulness
... Serenity ...No fights, no arguments
just laying together and cuddling in soft spoken words
feeling your body... your skin against mine
that's what's most precious to me and special in my mind.
I get caught in the quiet, trying to forget it all
And each moment I look into his eyes,
there is a new burst, a power so strong,
that I feel like it hurts... maybe destroy me completely.
Jumping into the ocean of love ...remember the rainbow???
~ the waves threaten to swallow and take me under.
Deep into darkness and going UNDER!
Yet I take the chance and let my wall down but then...
then it happened again!
The real world has crushed my dream with all the influence of life crashing in...
Now these moments are few and far between
and once again there's light... I find myself in a tunnel, dark
and gloomy with no end in sight
I'm left longing for the perfect moment in my heart and mind.
All I can do is hang in there,hope and pray,
telling my heart to be strong and get stronger every day!
So I won't feel it crushing this time
and take a risk at becoming a stranger to the love of my life
for he is 'lost' already in heart, soul and mind...
His journey will be a long and exhausting one
as I am left wishing I could help him more than this
especially help understand how I can not cope
with the worries and stress, always wondering...
my loving heart at attention, keen on signs and emotions
... rather be numb at times or hating him
~ so much easier it would be and hurt so much less!
But than that wouldn't be me now would it?
... loving him so, with adoration and with all my heart & soul!
So I pray for him and ask for forgiveness
for I couldn't be strong... or stronger than I am.
Pray for understanding of my condition,
to see that I'm wasting away into nothingness it seems
and just can't stand as close as I would love to be.
Pray for the strength and the guidance that is needed
to make it through this test of Life and for our Love.
And most of all, I pray for the chance to make my love see
the true path bestowed upon us as ONE...
Because do I love you... my partner, my lover, my best friend
July 24th, 2008
