I am foolish
to think I could fly
without wings
so I am left dangling from the tip
of a loose raven’s feather
until they return
these ravens
my ravens
clattering along a wire watching me
cackling at me “you foolish girl!
Why you trying to fly, when you have no wings?”
I couldn’t answer
my tongue swollen with embarrassment
I want to cry
but I had gone dry, cried myself into dust
I am hollow, and the remnants of my soul
Clang inside, and I am a bell tolling out the chores
Of me simply breathing
My ravens inched closer
Their beaks glitter under the sun
Cocking their heads down eyeing me
With my own indecision
“Foolish girl, why would you want to fly?”
I want to feel the wind through hair
To be held in the clouds
Linger in the warmth of the sun
I want to fly because it reminds me of being in love
“in love, silly girl, what are you thinking?”
They clatter their laughter
“flying to be in love, but you have no wings”
I am left with shadows
They linger around my door
Eager to come in, and for a moment
I feel full of life, but in daybreak they are gone
Sneaking out under the door before I wake
Maybe I like them for that
The easiness of slipping them on for a second
Tasting their smiles, wearing their skins
For a moment. I feel I have wings
“Foolish, foolish girl, what will you do now?
With these wings of yours… now gone”
My ravens ask, and I look up at the sky
Letting the sun blind me, so I could cry out my loneliness
Heart beats slow in my ear
My breaths become silent
I feel my fingers getting light
The feather wavering in my fingertips
I am foolish
to think I can fly
Without wings
I would cry, but I cried myself dry
And I am so hollow I could probably float to the top
My ravens watch me with my own indecision
For a foolish that wanted to be loved
But lost her wings except one feather of doubt
“foolish, foolish girl, what will you do now?
With these wings of yours… now gone.”
I guess I will learn how to fly without wings
I let go of the feather
Let myself fall
Losing all doubt, the pain
The shadows that linger too long
Remember my smile, my skin
Foolish girl, I whisper
Why did you think you needed wings to fly?
