ripped from my chest i feed the animals
a heart i no longer need
i wish for it to cease to beat
i watch it pulse in my hands
blood flowing
dripping
i feel like i have wings that have been ripped from the joints
open wounds never to heal
pain rages through me
tears that never cease in their endless flow
and endless sleep is wish for
pain dwells where there should never have been emotion
stupidity floods my mind
i scream why me
what was wrong with me that i receive the vulnerable heart
all things squashed with a faltering glimmer of a hope
hope is a deceiving creature of the night it stalks and lurks
kills things you are ignorant enough to believe in
ever swelling darkness
never good enough
never loved
always loving which cannot be had
hatred swells for oneself
an end must come
blood flow to cease
a still ever beating heart grasped in and clinched fist
grip tightening
lungs gasping for air
stupidity increases
fates cruel games
bring light
then shatter it with a swinging blow
never ending defeat
never loved
always consuming hate
a pill hard to swallow
poisoning me
wishing for death
hating the knowledge of the marrow
the fear of the knowledge of things to come
a path nears its end
wishing
hoping
for an end to come
knowing fate has no such plans
self hate flows
a path with no end
love is overrated and hate is ever consuming
