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Queen Candace's blog: "About Me :)"

created on 05/05/2008  |  http://fubar.com/about-me/b213119

I don't deserve

As I sit here trying so hard to hold back my tears, I realize how much I don't deserve. I don't deserve to be happy. All I ever do is make people miserable. I don't deserve children. I've lost two already. I don't deserve a relationship. I'll only ruin it and cause them pain. I don't deserve a family. It would only be more people for me to hurt. I don't deserve the luck I've had. I don't deserve the car I have. I don't deserve the kindness of my moms boyfriend. I don't deserve the job I have. I'm not qualified for it and I only got it because I got lucky and have worked there so long. I don't deserve my life. So I sit here thinking. How did my life get this way? It wasn't always this way. So how did it end up this way without my realizing it? Is it fixable? Even if I fix it I would still deserve nothing. I'm not a bad person. I don't cause trouble. I don't get arrested. I don't do drugs. I don't smoke anything. I don't physically harm anyone. How did I get this way? I feel so empty and numb. I feel like I don't deserve my life.

Own Me

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Random Info Part 2!

I'm a Gemini. I'm Shrewd. I like peanut butter and jelly sandwiches (triangle cut). I get into phases where I will read a book a day (two on a weekend day). I read junky romance novels, science fiction, fantasy, horror, and chick lit. I always prefer the book instead of the movie. I help others when I can. I read my horoscope every day. I can't wear gold at all. I can't wear much jewelry for long periods of time. I have sensitive skin. I've only had a hang over once. If I want something I get it for myself or I do without. I'm sensitive. I love girl scout cookie samoa ice cream. I love johnny depp (especially in crybaby). I sew. I like scratch tickets. I'm sarcastic. I play jokes on people. I love sun showers (but not golden showers). I collect bath and body works lotions and body sprays. I listen to my music loud. I sing along to songs and I don't care if you like it or not. I like karaoke. I love flip flops. I love boots. I love pajama/lounge pants and tank tops. I don't believe in going out of the house in pajama pants, lounge pants, or sweat pants. I love stars.

Random Info

I love the beach but I hate sand and saltwater. In 2005 I went to London 10 times. I hate beets and Brussels sprouts. I love Belgian waffles (I only eat them when I'm in Belgium) but I hate waffles. I push people away. Its hard for me to trust. I don't eat candy or chocolate except on occasion. I like the stop and go of rush hour traffic. I like the smell of things baking. I don't like flowers as a gift because they die. But I love gardening. My name was supposed to be Amber. I used to make my own clothes (my grandmom taught me how to sew. she was a seamstress for strippers) I hate the color brown. I love wagamama's. I love ramen noodles. I love fruit. My right eye twitches sometimes because of my allergies. I'm allergic to smoke due to my very sensitive sinuses. My fingernails are long naturally. I've never been to a tanning salon. I buy clothes for comfort and could care less about the brand. I wear black socks. I believe in karma. I have a soulmate. I have a wife (♥ ali)

All About My Birthday!!!

13 June 1982 Your date of conception was on or about 20 September 1981 which was a Sunday. You were born on a Sunday under the astrological sign Gemini. Your Life path number is 3. Your fortune cookie reads: We cannot do great things; only small things with great love. Mother Teresa Life Path Compatibility: You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9. You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 2, 5 & 11. You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 4, 7, 8 & 22. The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2445133.5. The golden number for 1982 is 7. The epact number for 1982 is 5. The year 1982 was not a leap year. Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 1/25/1982 and ending 2/12/1983. You were born in the Chinese year of the Dog. Your Native American Zodiac sign is Elk; your plant is Mullein. You were born in the Egyptian month of Mesore, the fourth month of the season of Shomu (Harvest). Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 23 Sivan 5742. Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 24 Sivan 5742. The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.9.0.9 which is 12 baktun 18 katun 9 tun 0 uinal 9 kin The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Sunday, 20 Sha'ban 1402 (1402-8-20). The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 11 April 1982. The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 18 April 1982. The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 24 February 1982. The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 30 May 1982. The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 6 June 1982. The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 18 September 1982. The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 8 April 1982. The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 23 February 1982. As of 2/18/2009 11:30:22 PM EST You are 26 years old. You are 320 months old. You are 1,392 weeks old. You are 9,747 days old. You are 233,951 hours old. You are 14,037,090 minutes old. You are 842,225,422 seconds old. Celebrities who share your birthday: Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen (1986) Raz-B (1985) Rivers Cuomo (1970) Jamie Walters (1969) Ally Sheedy (1962) Tim Allen (1953) Richard Thomas (1951) Malcolm McDowell (1943) Siegfried Fischbacher (1939) Christo (1935) Paul Lynde (1926) Ralph Edwards (1913) William Butler Yeats (1865) Top songs of 1982 I Love Rock `n' Roll by Joan Jett & the Blackhearts Eye of the Tiger by Survivor Ebony and Ivory by Paul McCartney & Stevie Wonder Centerfold by J. Geils Band Maneater by Daryl Hall & John Oates Jack & Diane by John Cougar Don't You Want Me by Human League Up Where We Belong by Joe Cocker & Jennifer Warnes Abracadabra by Steve Miller Band Hard to Say I'm Sorry by Chicago Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.81487279843444 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!) Your lucky day is Wednesday. Your lucky number is 5. Your ruling planetstop.gif is Mercury. Your lucky dates are 5th, 14th, 23rd. Your opposition sign is Sagittarious. Your opposition numberstop.gif is 3. Today is not one of your lucky days! There are 115 days till your next birthday on which your cake will have 27 candles. Those 27 candles produce 27 BTUs, or 6,804 calories of heat (that's only 6.8040 food Calories!) . You can boil 3.09 US ounces of water with that many candles. In 1982 there were approximately 3.6 million births in the US. In 1982 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile. In 1982 in the US there were 2,495,000 marriages (10.8%) and 1,180,000 divorces (5.1%) In 1982 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000) In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds. In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds. In 1982 the population of Australia was approximately 15,288,891. In 1982 there were approximately 239,903 births in Australia. In 1982 in Australia there were approximately 117,274 marriages and 44,088 divorces. In 1982 in Australia there were approximately 114,771 deaths. Your birthstone is Alexandrite The Mystical properties of Alexandrite Alexandrite can assist one in centering the self, reinforcing self-esteem, and augmenting ones ability to experience joy. Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources) Pearl, Moonstone, Opal Your birth tree is Hornbeam, the good taste Of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, tends to egoism, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads reasonable, disciplined life, looks for kindness, an emotional partner and acknowledgment, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with her feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious. There are 310 days till Christmas 2009! There are 323 days till Orthodox Christmas! The moon's phase on the day you were born was waning gibbous. http://www.paulsadowski.com/BirthDay.asp

Things You Should Know

★There is only one person in this world that gets me ★If I wanted a man I'd get myself one. ★I'm not here to meet men off the internet to fuck them. ★I don't care if you jerk off to my photos I DON"T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT IT ★I will not talk dirty to you ★I'm a dirty whore I'm just not your dirty whore. ★I'm just as perverted (if not more) as the rest of you. Doesn't mean I'm going to run around the internet trying to flirt and fuck every guy i think is attractive. ★I will not have phone sex with you. ★If your married or in a relationship keep everything you say to me on a friendly basis or i may hunt down your significant other and tell her. ★I'm a cunt and proud of it. ★I joke around a lot. ★My humor is sick, twisted, and perverted. ★I'm easily amused. ★I hate people but there are a select few I like ★I like my music heavy, gritty, dirty, morbid, melodic, and dark (rap included). ★Necro is my favorite rapper ★Within Temptation is my favorite band ★Sharon Den Adel is my hero ★I have a big crush on the chick from Stick It lol Mainly because she looks like my mellie. ★I like to have alone time ★I watch a lot of movies ★I don't watch tv ★I love my blue eyes ★I live up to my irish and italian heritages. ★I love creativity and art ★I love concerts, music, my tour friends, and doing concert photography ★I have some amazing people in my life ★My family is absolutely nuts ★I photoshop and paintshop a lot
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