The one person that I feel close to and yet so far away does it again. No matter what just for any reason he gets to me in every way when nobody else can. But yet when it comes down to it I almost want to back away but can't. A person that was always there for me and yet still is just walks in all the time,picks up the pieces of a yet broken life and somehow tends to put the pieces together and make it seem so simple. In my so whacked out,crazy,messed up life that has been dragging me down for years now he seems to just make it seem like its been this weird dream I have had. Thats its all been this made up life I have had and now its time to escape and get back to the real world. I know I spoke with someone just last night and they wondered why I was making up excuses as to why I am still stuck in this utter misery I am in and not making myself happy for once. Well hey if it was easy I would have the things the way I want already. It seems like something is always tieing me to my life now and yet there really is nothing. Well besides my car being in the shop and having no way to go anywhere. I just feel lost in this weird forsaken world of mine with little chance of escape it seems. I want to and yet something stops me. I need my sanity for once....I need to breathe and to live once again and find me for once.
