Bringing up the past
is slowly eating me
feelings of worthlessness are crawling from the woodwork
of my mind
bringing forth memories
rather best forgotten
answering questions i never would before
baring the layers to my soul
pain so very close to overwhelming me
tears threatening to fall
so many things whispering the echos
of cruel intentions,
feeling numb today
fear reeling inside of me
why am i dredging up people and memories
that haunt my nightmares
when i was finally dreaming again
to bring up the past raises questions
questions i dont know if i have the answers too
i was young, i was hurting,
still am in so many ways
feeling raw inside
reopening old wounds in the hopes
that being true to myself,
and honest with you
will bring me happiness
that i only catch fleeting glances of
i pray the nightmares that are going to haunt me will be worth it this time
that taking this chance
will not end up killing me
because you already have the power to destroy me
and with that the tears start streaming
and the floods roll in
shaken to the core
and i pray
