Ashamed at myself
Sometimes it is hard to understand the decisions you make in your life. Especially when it affects others. I can say that I made some bad ones. I know when I have angered someone. I know it. I know when I have disappointed someone. I have done that today. I hate the feeling. I try so hard not to have my life complicate others that I do exactly the opposite of what I should do. I accept my mistakes. I try to learn from them and not make them again. Easier said then done. I am not perfect and when stressed I do not always make the right decision. Sometimes I want to hide and hope things go away. I know that is stupid. Of course it is, but it is sometimes my wish. I am ashamed of myself lately. I think because I am disappointed in myself. My decision have not always made sense to me even after I have done them. I accept that. I am still ashamed of myself.
