Here yet again for the billionth time in a row, the same old, same old conservation. It's just never going to end or stop. Our relationships are changing and we have to face facts, it's just the same thing over and over. I knew for a fact it wouldn't change and damn me if I'm right on the money. Gasp, what a shock. I'm so sick and tired of this neverending bullshit conversation about money issues. It's just one crappy day after another and I'm so out of energy being there for a beautiful intelligent and brave sister, who deserves much much more than she's getting out of this. Like I said before, he's just NOT going to change, we are going to have to accept those terms apparently because NOTHING'S getting easier or through the thick skin of a stubborn mule head. Again a copier machine must be in order at "The Golden Speakers" office, you know, it must be in between "The Golden God" and "The Golden Crew" towns that we don't know about, see or in his terms, just don't understand. Not to mention I guess I'm not supposed to defend my sister's honor in any way possible. I mean after all, I'M the one who has never lied to her in my whole old adult fogey life, but god forbid I defend someone I love from MY WHOLE HEART.
But alas, I guess since I raised her to be a shut up Fort Knox slothville sit on her dumb moronic ass idiot hoochie(this is what Traci was called, yet if you notice shut up and hoochie mean two different things, I mean which is it, is she a shut up, closed up Fort Knox prude or a freaking slothville hoochie). Talk about NOT knowing your words at all . See fool it's called a dictionary, look it up and USE IT! HOT DAMN, I mean it's like this quote in Pretty In Pink, "Everytime he goes to the john, he loses IQ points"(Not that there was much there to begin with) I'm just so worried that late one night he will kill her, the animals and then me while I'm sleeping, so I stay up to make sure Traci, Shadow and Piper are safe and lose my sleep in the process, but I guess that comes from me, let me phrase what he told us, "Being raised in our parents bubble". Well I got news for you, if being an honest, truthful and caring individual makes me "raised in a bubble", then I'm SO proud to be mom and dad's daughter. I could NOT be prouder right stinking NOW.
We were given this statement too, "We have no friends", yet the closest friends we(Traci and I) have ever made are the ones we've met online. Not certain "others" who are just too low to even deserve this mention. But I guess the online ones just don't count in HIS opinionatic world. But that comes from Traci and I not having many homeline friends, but we scores of online ones(at least the ones we can trust), while he has no online friends, but tons of homeline ones who just aren't worth the trouble anymore.
Traci and I were also told that, "Dad and Pop would be ashamed of the way Traci, Mom, Nana and I treat him". Well if that's true then tell it to God, while the four of us women risked EVERYDAY doing things for those men in our lives, because that's what family does and also it comes from our heart BECAUSE WE LOVED THEM. But, where was he during all of this, nowhere to help, especially in something we had to do for both men that you would NEVER think you could/would do in your life, unless, you loved them with your pure heart of gold. I guess that makes all four of us women "Heartless" because that's what we've been called. Well, if taking care and loving your father and grandfather makes us heartless, then fine we're heartless, but don't go calling us that unless you've been through what we've experienced(and by that I mean helping us in those everyday needs).
I will also tell you this as tears roll down my face right now, if it meant that I could have my father and grandfather back here on earth, even if they were sick and we had to do those things all over again, all four of us musketeer women would do it again without one single solitary question. I guess if a divorce is in the works for a moronic fool, then so be it, the four of these heartless "Musketeers" deserve better than what we're getting. So put that in your freaking pipe and smoke it!
Sayonara everyone for this early morning!
Dawnie
