The Calloused And The Resurection
i thought i could never stand again
my fall had been far, hard
with no one to pull me to my feet
i was too far down, out of reach of
pain
love
safety
security
redemption
i could not see light through my darkness
my tomb of oblivion i had driven myself into
i brought myself here on my own two feet
and could no longer find them when all was said and done
each passing day held the same lack of hope
of a way out
a way out of my calloused apathy
i could not allow my heart to thaw
to feel
then from nowhere a dim light
and with a hardened heart i could not open myself up
you were my light
growing stronger with every moment
minutes to hours, hours to days
slowly i became able to see the light for what it really was
my way from the dark, the depths of my mind
your warmth to my acquired cold
you were everything i could ever have imagined
exactly what love is supposed to be
kind
caring
compassionate
endless
you kissed away every last wound
wiped away every tear
you saved my life
and i know you will never hurt me
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The Birth Of Deception
a slow silent pain
one i had felt before
creeping underneath the skin
subtle and incoherent
once before, in another time
but this is love
love takes
work
effort
pain
sacrifice
all this is necessary
you never changed
we just grew closer, growing, together
you would never hurt me
you eyes told me so
they are so honest, innocent
telling me truths only spoken in silence
i am letting the cold back in
your not the same
you saved me, pulled me from the dark
you are my life
without you i would die
and you would never hurt me
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The Death And The Broken Heart
a stab in the back and a knife to the throat
left breathless and bleeding, torn wide open
you had a cold empty cavity where a heart should have been
but instead you stole mine, feeding from my weakened life
a smile on your face to subdue my hate
eyes wide as your blade ran through my spine
so quick
so clean
so easy
so painless
life fading like a setting sun
words that cannot be spoken
through a dissected windpipe
hush now, you said, you'll be alright
and with that broken honesty in your eyes i believed
until i felt myself collapse and my eyes went black
