ASIANHOTTIE DNO's blog: "me just being me"

Dear Heart I'm sorry for all the bad things you've felt I'm sorry for the pain you've gone through I'm sorry for just not appreciating Because I couldn't have gone on without you You've taught me how to feel and accept The special love from another You've taught me how good it felt too The love between a daughter and a mother You've taught me that I can open up To my crazy but great family To feel that kind of love in this heart Makes me feel... yes... HAPPY Then you taught me love from friends Who I love sooo true and deep And when I found out who my TRUE friends were You taught me how to weep Yes you taught me pain as well Sadness... sorrow.... and loss I know how precious life is And that life has no cost You've taught me how to give too And to someone that I truly love I remember how it felt like when... He was the only one I was thinking of Yes I felt more pain then too When he left my daughter and me But then I healed you up Thanks to the help of my friends and family I'm sorry for the pain you endured For the bad things that you've been through I never meant to just give you away And have someone take care of you I've seen all those scars that you have From being shattered, beaten and bruised And all those little puncture wounds From being betrayed, used, and abused Heart, I'm so afraid to open you up again To someone that I may think worthy of you You don't know how much it hurts me Because of the things that I think he may or may not do I don't want you to break again Because I don't want to feel you cry I know what it really feels like When my Heart slowly dies I hope you understand why I put a stone wall around you It's not so you cannot feel, Heart It's just something I have to do You know I don't you to break or shatter You know I don't want you to feel pain You know that I don't want you used and abused For someone else's or everyone else's personal gain I even put a barb wire around you For the extra protection you see It's not only protection from others But also protection from me So when you're ready, Heart I'll tear these walls done for you You tell me when your ready, Heart When you feel the love that is so true