He said that I have no reason to be upset, that I knew it was over a long time ago. I cant help it. Now, being she is here for a week, I feel my heart breaking all over again. As I just sit, locked, in my room, all I can think about is what they may or may not be doing in his room. I know the best thing would be for me to get out but I have no where to go right now, well, no where that I want to take my daughter as well. There have been others since him, but I still cant help but getting upset. I dont think I did anything to deserve this in my life. I have been honest, caring, giving, and supportive of all those around me, and I get nothing in return. No one to love or care for me like I want/need them to. All I want to do is cry. Its not fair. I havent really been happy in a long time. I hate being alone. I dont think anyone should be alone, but that is all I feel. Alone. No one to cuddle with or to talk to. No one to be there for me when I am sad, or share my excitment with me when something good happens. Just a roommate who is an ex and his new girlfriend. I dont want to be here anymore.
