Divorce
Dealing with divorce has not really been that hard for me because for the last 7 years I was married (14 total) I feel like me and the ex really didn’t have a relationship anyway. The one thing that bothers me the most is that my children have had to go through it. I went through it with my parents so I know its tough. I thought that when I decided to finally get married it would be forever. I guess I should have chosen a different woman because there were red flags from the beginning but for some unknown reason I decided to go ahead any way. Must have been from all the sex we were having. I didn’t realize once you got married that stopped (a little humor) not completely but slowed way the hell down. Any way got off track a little. Back to the kids. I only get to see my children every other Saturday for 9 hours because I didn’t have my own place when we went to court and also didn’t have a lawyer to help me. My lawyer died before we made it to court. (Rumor has it while doing his secretary) Just my luck. So I went in by myself and pretty much just let her have everything that WE had worked for, for 14 years. According to her though I really didn’t contribute much. But anyway, I really miss spending time with my children and their mother is pretty much just raising them right now however she see’s fit which a lot of things we don’t see eye to eye on. But she has custody so there’s not much I can do at the moment. Which sucks for me because their mother hates me and so does there grand mother which makes it hard for me. They say that they don’t talk about me to the children but they did it while we were married so why would that change. My daughter used to be daddy’s little girl. She would come home from her grand mothers and tell me things her grand mother had said about me and it made her mad. Boy how times have changed. Now my daughter doesn’t want to have a whole lot to do with me and she acts like she is my mother. She talks nasty to me and has not come with me on our weekend visits since Christmas. She only came then so she could get her presents. My son on the other hand always comes with me. We always have a real good time just doing guy things. I’m hoping when he is older maybe he will want to come live with me. Guess I’ll just have to wait and see. I know this is getting pretty long so I guess I’ll close out for now. Sure most people wont read it anyway. But it helped me get a few things off my chest. Maybe I’ll get some more off my chest later. I’m sure something will happen to make me want to get some things off my chest later. Who knows? 
