Look this is pretty much my life in a nutshell where it has been and where Im going.
THE BAD: I have had a turmoil of events over the past year and ahalf. I have lost my license by getting a OUIL last december that was the start. It made me quit a great cooking job with great people. Over that Time I have struggled with people personalites, money and Jobs. I have even put my school on hold for the moment with pretty much 1 year left to finish my program and associates degree in computers. hopefully I can get a minor in my second love Cooking. I used to be into some heavy duty things before my downfall but found out it wasnt what I needed. I drink still but am more responsible and not as much any more and want to cut back even more. I was the type that if I smelled gasoline I threw the match on it. I am learning thats not always the best thing to do. I have no car no license not alot of money. I smoke and drink by my choice. I have alienated too many people over the course of the years for reasons not always deserved. I dont have alot of friends that I hang out with or even talk to on aregular basis. alot of it because they have been pushed away for whatever reason. alot of the bad in my life is because I wasnt focused and thought to much about others. I take responsibility for my actions and what Ihave done.
THE GOOD: I am a sarcastic stubborn Asshole at times. I love sports and my friends more then anything, so much some times it brings out the worst. I love my music more then alot of things because it centers me. HIP- HOP is my one true love but appreciate and love all genres. I am a cook learning to be a Chef at a classy restaurant (the brewery)now, which is as better as the job I left a year ago and so great for having it. I am somewhat a dork in nature I like comics, I like poetry and appreciate finer things in life to satisfy my time and keep me away from misery. I am gonna put forth all my effort into my relationship with people that deserve it and my job. I cant do anything at this point but improve my situation and that wwhat I intend to do. I am into computers. I am ADD which makes me wirey and fidgety. I dont get out much which sux, sometimes I feel like im 16 again. I will now focus one me since I am the only one that can make me succeed. I am also gonna keep people of inspiration and you have the will to move forward in life.
Negativity is a killer and I will not surround my Aura with it anymore. I need inspiration and the will to push forward and I think I finally got that revalation running through my blood in the past week.
I finally realized I wanted everything my parents have and wanted and was trying to make those steps to get that and I will succeed. With marriage, love, wealth, mind body and my soul.
