Faith
Do I have any faith? That is a interesting question isn't it? A question to ask ourselves, do we have it and in what or who?
I have to admit I don't know if I have a lot of faith. I have been watching one, checking her out slowly as is my way. I am not sure what to think sometimes.
I wonder if it is just me, or is it somthing more? Still being a Devil I will watch with hunger and desire, being a deacon I will refrain until I am sure.
Self Discipline is a wonderful thing, but so is Devine Decadence...to surrender to temptation when everything else tells you its the stupid thing to do.
A submissive has to have self discipline,a nd has to surrender. One moment seeking out the desires of a Master she wishes to please, the next facing reality and what is right for the long term.
Is this some one you will want to take out to the bar? Is this someone you can play with, work with, some one who is your partner, your friend and you lover in the savage desires of wild need?
Faith...will she have it in you even if you don't really deserve it? Can she trust your heart even if she cannot trust your spirit when it comes to her tender mercies?
Faith that the throw of my whip is to better her, or please me? Faith that my punishments and projects have a greater lesson, or just are a means to give us both joy?
Faith..I don't have a lot of faith. I want to see what I am doing is working. I want to know that the little one under my hand is mine and not someone elses when my back is turned.
I want to know that if I use my whip, it is not only a moments string to saite until the next fall from someone elses welts her desires...faith..
Deacon
