Chrissy in CT's blog: "Nobody knows...."

I've been sitting here today trying to problem solve my life still and to no avail. Seems no matter what i do i keep running into brick walls and there is no one who can or will give me the answers i need to make things work. This blog is a warning to all women and men to check out their surgeons before you let them touch you. Ive been through hell the past 6 mos and god knows how much longer. First, out of sick time...now out of a job, then the car dies, next will be electric off, cable, then eviction. All because a surgeon would not listen to me post op that something hurt. And 3 mos later it was an even bigger problem requiring yet another surgery. Now i find out he has been sued before. But my lawyers are not forthcoming with any money to help me either. The processes take time. We are all one step away from disaster. Please, please if someone tells you you need to have surgery get a 2nd opinion, if you hurt and they wont listen, make them listen. Dont end up in this place where i exist right now...scared and feeling helpless. Its not fun. The anxiety i feel is eating me alive, making the pain worse no doubt, but is no way to put it at bay. I cry alot, pray alot, look into the sad eyes of my child at Christmas and worry. I guess as i sit here alone with no one to talk to at this time, i am just needing a little comfort. Normally so in control of life and now feeling hopeless, afraid and sometimes desperately alone. I'm scared...