Caught adrift on a wave of blissful immortality
Immune from the pain of death
Still feeling emotional train wreck
Of love and loss, and in between
Stuck in the eternal rut of repeating
The same mental state of the decisions past made
Trying to hide from the internal demons
Stabbing at my soul leaving ragged gashes
That never do heal, only rip open more
They never leave, and are never silent
Close my eyes to block out the world
And they are there waiting to tear into me more
Leaving my crying out in hysteria
Begging them to let me be
Detach myself from my body
To be alone in my mind
Where I can’t be harmed
But I can’t be loved
Because they don’t understand
The hurt that I feel, they never will
Destined to be alone for all of time
Until I find one that will understand
One that will deny these demons access
To the torn and tattered soul that dwells inside
One that will protect me from pain
And love me for the one that I am
But is there truly one, who can do that,
Who can love me unconditionally despite my faults?
So alone I stay trying to dodge the demons
Until He finds me.
