have you ever just wanted to cry?
to take on all your hurt all at once, to take off this mask you wear and show the world you really aren’t that strong at all.
have you ever just wanted to love?
everyone that ever hated you. to say your sorry when you did nothing wrong.
have you ever just wanted to feel? feel love that’s overwhelming that shakes you to your core. the perfection most strive for but never achieve. when its right in front of you but you cant have it.
have you ever just wanted to scream?
to tell the world everything, all your lies and secrets, if only just once.
have you ever wanted to fall?
just to hurt, just to sleep to make everything stop.
have you ever just wanted to bleed?
to cleanse the soul of imperfection, to bare the truth for all to see, to show how fucked up you really are.
have you ever just wanted to lose?
to show them all that you aren’t perfect. to spit the logic back in the faces of those who told you that you would succeed.
have you ever just wanted to hide?
to make it all go away, before your failures catch up with you, and they can see beyond the mask, beyond this show that you put on.
have you ever just wanted to stop?
to end everything where you stand, to say I told you so. to show your hate and disgust, for you for the world.
have you ever just wanted to pray?
but not know what god is. to ask for help because you feel so lost, so alone, so unwanted in your skin.
have you ever just wanted to fight?
for that love you so deserve, that goal you could achieve, that life that you should have. fight for the pain the loss the tears the love, fight for the new for the old for what’s gone forever.
have you ever just wanted to....
