So as I said in an earlier blog I am finally very happy. What really sucks about all this is that when I wasn't happy I was a very healthy person. Just one month after meeting Wayne I start having back pain. Went to the dr thinking it was a pinched nerve. Took xrays and gave me pain meds. Called and told me nothing wrong. Said then why am I always in constant pain? So sent me to orthopedic. He took more xrays and said I had arthritis in my back. Gave me some more meds. Sent me to physical therapy. Went back for 6 week follow up and still in lots of pain. Also swollen ankles and feet. Turns out one of the meds caused a reaction. Was sent to take mri and a nerve test. Nerve test not very fun. Ever have needles stuck in your neck? So here it is 3 months later and waiting to go see a rhumetologist. Think I might have MS or lupus. So was I handed all this now that I am happy so I could handle it better? Earlier in life I had just too many problems to handle this also? Sounds fair in one way but not in other. Why can't I be happy all around. But then again I guess no ones life could be that perfect. So I guess I have to just wait and see for now. Best thing is Wayne has been wonderful through all this. Don't know what I would do if he wasn't here to get me through this!