I feel so helpless. Have you ever had a life that maybe wasn’t the best? It maybe wasn’t what you really wanted, but it was worthwhile? One minute you’re running around trying to make last minute birthday plans for your daughter. The next minute you’ve slipped into a diabetic coma. On January 16, my 25th birthday, my mom did just that. We thought we had lost her. One minute she was asking me to make the room stop spinning and the next, shes lying helpless in a hospital bed. My mom had a job, had a life, had a husband, and she had a daughter and grandson who love her dearly. I had a choice to make. I was on disability myself but temporarily. I was on my way to finding a job and finally getting back on my feet. I went to my pyschiatrist where she informed me that disability would be a good choice for me. I’m okay with that now... my mom needs me. I owe it to her to help her. Shes now on insulin and has a hard time getting around. Shes suffering from ambulatory dysfunction and neuropathy. I feel so helpless and i can’t seem to really help her except to be there if she needed me. I’m there EVERYDAY cooking and cleaning for them. I give her the insulin and i go home to do my home chores. Thats all i can do. I feel so bad. Shes always sick and helpless herself. Her whole life shes helped other people... and now its her turn and theres nothing we can do for her... without $$$$.. and with the both of us out of work, whats that anymore???
I’m soooo helpless.
