well well. it's almost thanksgiving so i guess i should be thankful for something. i really don't know exactly what to be thankful for. i guess my life is blessed beyond comparison, but what exactly does it all mean? is all the material stuff important? i don't have anybody to call my own. hmmm... it hurts me that nobody will be by my side to eat turkey. nobody that truly cares for me the way i need to be cared for. so what do i do? say i'm thankful for being an American? i am thankful for that at least. i wish i had someone, though.