I hold it back
Acting like I don't care
I know it makes him happy
That is all that matters to me
But I wonder when I'm going to crack
When he will finally find out I'm not really okay
Will he be mad I didn't tell him
Will I love him forever
I really don't know
So I have to make sure I hold it back
So I don't end up packing my bags
Having to leave something that is so amazing
I'll just have to learn to keep it back when with him
And fall apart behind his back
