The one thing that I swear I would never do I did today and now I need to come clean about it. I hurt the one person that I care about some much that she doesn't even want to talk to me anymore. I lied to this person and shouldn't have and for that I am truely sorry.
On the Friday before New Year's I got a blow job from someone and then proceeded to go over to her house to hang out with her. She was then hit up by someone else online how told her about it and I lied to her and said it wasn't true. Well it has been eating at me for the last 2 months and now it is out in the open. I know that I was wrong and for this I will pay dearly for because I lost the greatest thing in my life forever. Thier is no excuses for what I did and thier never will be. All I can do is take my licks and be yelled at by everyone about it. I will never get back what I lost and I know everyone is going to tell me I told you so but it needs to be said and everyone needs to know how much of a Jerk I truely am.
I closing I am going to say that thier is nothing I can do to change what I have done, because if I could I would. I can't so I am not going to hide it from anyone anymore. I just needed to get it out and it is done. I lost that one happy feeling that everyone looks for and will never get it back.
