I don't know how much more I can take of not having my own house to live in. I hate having to wait for the damn phone just so I can talk to my kids nightly. Everyone knows I call them everynight, and the funny thig is the one I have to fight the phone over has her own damn cell phone she can use to talk I dont have that nor or the kids even near here. I dont talk to people that live not even 20 mins away. The phone is the only link I have to them I dont have anything else. Not even the hope of seeing them soon I have months before I will even get to see my kids again.Things are building here inside of me and I am not going to be able to hold it in very much longer. And that is a side of me I dont want Adam ever to see.Its a side no one should ever see. I can be very mean and thats not me at all. I am very close to losing my temper and when it happens its lible to get everyone around me even the ones I love and care for and I dont want that to happen.I have no control over my mouth when I lose my temper and I yell at anyone who looks at me.I just have so much stress right now and I dont know how much more I can take really.GRRRRR I could justv fucking scream right now and take someone fucking face off with my bare hands.
