sweet tart's blog: "Just some stuff I write..."

I have to be honest here...I don't have a good feeling (I hope, beg, pray to whatever powers there are, that I am wrong) about the upcoming MRI for my RL Quasi husband (look quasi up if you do not know what it means). I am fucking terrified but I can't show it. I'm supposed to be a cast iron bitch...strong...impenetrable....

I'm not.

My mind is consumed with worry...stress...jesus fucking christ, not another illness...

I can't endure it, once again...or can I??? I DON'T KNOW. I don't fucking know. Hurry up and wait....I FUCKING hate that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We shall see what happens.