I did it again. I got my hopes up only to have my heart ripped out and stomped on. I met this really cool guy and we've been talking for almost two weeks. We've been talking that long because of my vacation, we couldn't go out until I got back. We were supposed to go out tonight. We talked for a few hours on Sunday when I got home and everything was all dandy. Then Monday I didn't hear from him until about 11pm when he sent me a text saying it had been a long day at work and he was tired so he was going to bed. I found this text odd because he doesn't usually text, he normally calls. And he is a teacher so why would it take until 11 for him to be done with work? But I just said ok goodnight. Well about 45 minutes later I saw him on AIM for just a few minutes. I found this odd too since he supposedly went to bed. But I just shrugged it off and went to bed. Then all day Tuesday I didn't hear from him. We were supposed to finalize our plans, but no word from him. He didn't return my text and when I called him his phone went straight to voicemail. Well this was the last red flag I needed. I knew something was up. Well I got up this morning and he hadn't contacted me so I sent him a text asking what was up. Thirty minutes later he texts me and he says "sorry to tell you but i have the opportunity to be with someone who i have been in love with for a long time. if i dont take this chance now i'll never get it again...sorry." I began to bawl when I read this. This is the second guy in my life to dump me for some girl from his past. The other turned out disastrous as I'm sure this one will. I sent him back three different texts just asking him wtf basically. He has never responded and I don't expect him to. I'm just kicking myself in the butt for thinking he was different and he wouldn't do something like this to me. He's such a fucking pussy. He didn't even have the balls to call me about this. Now I think I'm completely justified in saying that I give up and I'm just going to become a hermit. I want nothing to do with dating and guys for a really long time. My heart can't take this much longer. MY GAWD! He lead me on for two weeks all the while knowing he was in love with someone else. I obviously suck at life.
On a little more positive note, my mom's b/f said he would take me out to Outback this Friday. They were supposed to take me there for my birthday, but funds wouldn't allow. Well he said I deserve it and he'll find the money. I was supposed to have another date to a baseball game with the loser on Friday. So I hope the dinner will take my mind off of that.
Thanks to anyone who actually read this. And just for the record this was not a fubar thing or anything like that. This was real life, ha.
