it feels like everything i do turns out wrong... i feel empty and alone and this hole inside of me keeps growing... i want to get my life together i want a job a career i want to be self dependant and strong. not single would be nice considering the guy i was dating i was willing to give into even though he was so far away but this ignore me thing is making me miserable... and i actually find somone i like here but they move.... so it was okay to like someone far away but whats the point if he dont even talk to me anymore....
my best friend rather be some where eles then here after he asked me to come and i pulled many strings to get him to come here...my dad is a drunk and treats me like shit i dont have that many friends....... all the people im interested in are never into me no matter what i do or how i look... even being totally me doesnt do it... i get all the people i dont want into me being me... so should i lower my standards and settle for what i can get???? i just wanna give up.... i really dont think anything works out right ... and Boston... come on now that just sucks ... and Justyn u can kiss my fucking ass...... i just wanna disappear
