"Hey im feelin tired, my time is gone today, you flirt with suicide, sometimes thats ok"...Falling Away From Me...Korn I have no idea what to do....I'm truely sick of it all...my sense of responsibility once kept me going, but right now I don't care either...live or die...sink or swim...I get no help, simple requests are ignored, like the crazy guy that stands on the corner telling everyone the end is near...my heart is heavy, and my muscles hurt...is it age? your as young as you feel, and right now I fell like I'm 80...although nearing 40, and don't give me that crap that 40 is the new 30, I still look 30, which with 30 being the new 20...AARRRGGHHH TO MANY NUMBERS!!!...where was I, oh yeah...MY LIFE IS SUCKING!!!and no one near me seems to care, some of my CT friends whisper words of encouragement...THNX TO ALL!!...but the ones that could really make a difference seem to wrapped up, and the fake crap has to end, maybe I'm cynical, years ago I was told I was to young to be cynical, I think I'm old enough now...I just don't believe people any more...I'm not the smartest person in the world, and I won't tell you how it is that I know, but damn it...STOP LYING TO ME!!!...your not that good, and I can see right thru you...that's why I don't trust anyone, I've been lied to, taken advantage of for far to long...I was a sweet person, but now the world can kiss 100% of my puertorican ass!!!I'm in it for me, my responsibilty will be for ME!!!...me first, second, and third...and if there is anything left over...FUCK YOU ALL I'M TAKING THAT TO!!!!...if anyone doesn't like it...don't let the door hit your ass on the way out, don't like my attitude, well you helped bring the monster to life Dr. Frankenstein...LIVE WITH IT!!!...another thing I'm sick and tired of this state...sure the grass is always greener on the other side, but it's always greener when you live in a garbage dump...one day all will ask, "Where's Mikey??"...guess what I'll be where I should be, where the world will reflect my mood, always down, oh I know some out ther know where that is, but hell there is even another place I've never talked about, though if anyone ever really listened to me, I tend to talk about it sometimes...hint it's a place I visted often for several years...maybe I'll end up there away from it all, get a dog, at least they can love you, not lie to you, not bite the hand that feeds, not use then cut when no longer a needed, appreciate my worth, follow simple requests completely,...oh hell what am I saying I'm stuck here with no visible way to get out...the tears of frustration wet the keyboard as I type, my situation feels hopeless...I'm in a hole with only a inch and a half crack for me to hold on to stopping me from plunging into the darkness completely...and "I'm so tired"...again the Ozz..."Yours sincerely, wasting away"...When I"m 64...Beatles
