The Man I fell head over heels in love with suffers from Myeloma (Bone Cancer) and Leukemia. He is in stage 3 of his illness. It mean he is terminal. A short time ago he had an amputation. He also has a mass in his lungs. The progression has been devistating. It eats him away like a rapacious creditor. He daily struggled just to get up and breath sometimes.
About a month ago we had parted ways for a few days. I knew at that time he was trying to push me away to spare me from the devistating disease tearing through him. Without faltering I did not go away.
This time it is different. I think he honestly wants me to leave him be. He has now refused further treatments and does not want to deal with anything anymore.
I can not let him go. I know if you love something set it free...but I don't think I can.
I told him I would love him forever..not to just to the last breath that he draws, but to my last breath.
