well I am back in IL now, pretty fucking crazy being back home again. Still lonely as hell, but I get by. Working at State Farm now, and trying to keep myself together. Its funny every V-day I think it can't possibly be worse the next year, but it always is.... in fact the only thing I have to remember the last person who cared for me is a t-shirt haha, and I am wearing it. I just don't know... hopefully sooner or later I won't have to feel so singled out and secluded.