Ragdoll's blog: "good stuff"

My Illusions Caused me pain..... cost me valuable time.. I couldve spent getting myself all back together again.. But like Humpty Dumpty.. sitting on a wall... it would take more than all the King's Horses And all the King's men to put Lil Ragdoll Back together again. It was just for a moment... That I believed... That somehow the world would be alright again That the memories of most recent summers.. Could fade behind me, like a somewhat forgotten dream. But the illusion facing me... Drawing me unti it's power.. was to be more vivid, and rob me of my hope.. I tried to hold on..but within my arms grasp it eluded me, vaporizing..wisping away... At first I would not believe.... Could not see... that it all wasnt to be a part in anyone's reality. I sank facing the truth of dreams never to be I fell emotionally running to nothing and away from everything to solace myself in wicked truths My dignity and faith has been shattered, tattered tarnished and torn. This sometimes being the fate of one girl who dreams and believes in the best of the world.. only to find in the end I chased shadows....who were nothing more that residuals of the absence of light..... Stay away from me those who offer nothing but empty promises and agendas who dont hold me to high regard I have bankrupt my soul for the very last time... This pain will serve to remind me... To caution me... To warn me To protect me..... From Ill, and Illusions..... Like you ever again.