I HATE ALWAYS BEING FIRST TO BE TO LATE. WISH I WOULD HAVE MET YOU FIRST IS A COMMON PHASE I SAY ALOT. AN WRITING A BLOG TO GET MY FEELINGS OUT DOES ACUALLY HELP ME DEAL WITH THE FACT. THAT IM UGLY FAT AN NEVER NAKED ENOUGH FOR ANY GOOD DECENT MAN.
YES I AM VERY ANGRY. BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT I FEEL I HAVE TO COMPETE WITH TO GET THE ONE MAN I DO LIKE TO LIKE ME. BUT IM TO LATE. ONCE AGAIN ALREADY TAKEN GOT TO HIM FIRST. SO I FEEL BETTER NOW I HAVE THAT ALL OUT. AN I WILL NOT BE SO HASTY THE NEXT TIME. ITS SEEMS THE MEN I JUST WANT TO BE FREINDS WITH WANT MORE. AN THE ONES I DO ARE LIKE I SAID TAKEN OR GOING TO BE TAKEN. I JUST CANT SEEM TO BE THERE FIRST. SO I LEAVE ALL MEN ALONE EXCEPT TO SAY HI HOW YA DOING AN LEAVE IT AT NOTHING BEING MORE SAID. DONT THINK I CAN TRUST THEM ANYWAY. OR MAYBE ONE OF THESE DAYS ONE WILL COME ALONG AN GREET ME FIRST THAT I LIKE AN WANT TO GET TO KNOW. THAT ONE WE WILL JUST HAVE TO WAIT AN SEE.
