Jasmine's blog: "Stuff!"

So here's a lil background.

I have 2 uncles on my mum's side of the family.

One has always lived here in England and whose family I am closer to.

My other uncle is the eldest and he used to live in America till his wife left him, took all their money and abandoned her children too. I have two cousins by this uncle but the eldest (girl) still lives in America and his younger son lives with my uncle, they live in England now too. So my uncle came back cos he needed money and shelter from my grandma even though he took a BIG chunk of my grandad's money when he died to move to the states. So anyways, he came back and he lived with my other uncle for a bit till they had a massive falling out (Oldest uncle is a bit of a jackass) and he moved out.

So my eldest uncle now relies on my mother for stuff now, even though way back when he used to just not even bother with her (my mummy's the youngest out of them all). And his son, who is around my age, is a bit strange...like he has no social skills...AT ALL (very rude and just strange).

Anyway, so the son, Raymond, went into hospital the other day and my mum went by to go see him and stuff because there was something wrong with his kidney and his foot had swollen up.

Today I got a text from my cousin (she like hates them both cos they were just idiots when they lived in my uncle's house) and apparently she heard from our grandma that he needs a kidney transplant...

So I was all like woah WTF, but she just didn't really care and it was just a bit of gossip to her.

She jokingly...(I think) said that she thinks it's time I donated a kidney and I texted her back saying 'you first!' and she was all like nah I'm saving my kidney for my mum! (My auntie has kidney problems too). I mean I don't think she was serious cos she doesn't even really care I don't think. I mean I don't really have much affection for my uncle and my cousin Raymond either but I still feel sorry for them and it's not REALLY Raymond's fault that he's a bit weird and rude, it's my uncle's fault for not taking care of him properly.

Anyway I dunno if it will come to this but they do say that being a match is more likely when it's IN the family. I mean I don't even know if I should offer to be tested to see if I am a match.

Honestly, I DON'T want to. But I dunno whether I could deal with not even offering to see if it's possible that I am a match, or if I do and it turns out I am. To know I AM a match and to NOT want to would be even worse.

I mean I know I don't have to do anything, but it's awkward when I could be in a position to help but I don't want to.

I dunno. I mean as far as my mum knows, she doesn't know that I know so it's not like she'd ever suggest I go get tested. But I think my uncle MIGHT want me to, I'm not sure. I think in the back of his mind he would want me to but even he would never have the audacity to ask.