i think i have just come to the realization that i am at an awkward stage in my life. the trouble with finding and reinventing yourself in your 40s is that "the good years" are in the past and all you have left are a few years at your "peak".
i am having a "moment" today. i am not feeling so good about myself. i am feeling lonely and sad and i am not sure why. i do contribute part of it to men. they have no clue what they do, but always unconciously make us feel useless, unwanted, not good enough, etc. etc.
i need a change. i need something.
(my stupid settings are not working right, hence no capitalization...grrr)