I found out a little over a month ago that my mother is dying of lung cancer. Its in her lungs, bone and lymph nodes. My mother and I are very close, we've been through alot and made it through it all together. I love her so much and I can't even imagine the day when shes not here anymore. I just don't know...some days are good for her and some aren't. The doctor gave her months to live, not years. I look at my 3 yr old daughter and tell myself my mother has to stick around or else shes never gonna know how great her grandma is. I know I'm gonna fall apart it's just a matter of how bad. I know my children need me too, thats whats keeping me half way sane right now. I have my brother thats 28 and paralyzed from the nipple down living with me. Some times I just want to lay down in my room and have all day just for me and then I feel bad for feeling that way. I feel like I'm about to just snap.. if anyone can understand that. Idk. I love my brother but its a big job and no one else in my family will take him or help him because hes been so mean to them all since his wreck. I can only imagine how he feels now, he hates life. I get that, but he doesn't have to scream and hit and act like a moron. I am literally his last hope as far as living in a home setting goes and I've been doing it about 6 months. Most days are ok but some are pure hell. I'm afraid I'm gonna resent him later because I had to be there with him and not spend the time I wanted to with my mother. I just feel like giving up sometimes. shrug..
Eye Color: Green
Hair Color: Red
Height: 4'11
Favorite Color: pink and black
Screen Name: Evie
Favorite Band: Linkin Park
Favorite Movie: The Notebook
Favorite Show: Hmm... CSI Miami
Your Car: it runs
Your Hometown: San Bernardino, CA
Your Present Town: Athens, AL
Your Crushes First Name: I ain't tellin
Your Grade: I been out of school for many years
Your Style: in what? lol
Have You Ever
Sat on your rooftop?: done alot more than sat on one lol
Kissed someone in the rain?: yes
Danced in a public place?: yes
Smiled for no reason?: always
Laughed so hard you cried?: a few times
Peed your pants after age 8?: yes
Written a song?: no
Sang to someone for no reason?: yes
Performed on a stage?: yes
Talked to someone you don't know?: yes
Gone out of your way to befriend someone?: yes
Made out in a theatre?: sadly no
Gone roller skating since 8th grade?: yes
Been in love?: yep
Who was the last person to
Say HI to you?: hell i don't know
Tell you, I love you?: my son
Kiss you?: damn nosey fockers
Hug you?: my kids
Tell you BYE?: my mom
Write you a note?: a note? I don't remember.
Take your photo?: me
Call your cell phone?: a friend
Buy you something?: me
Go with you to the movies?: some old friends
Sing to you?: i dunno been a long time for that too
Write a poem about you?: never
Text message you?: jedediah my ex
Touch you?: me hehe
What's the last
Time you laughed?: earlier today
Time you cried?: when i signed the divorce papers a few weeks ago
Movie you watched?: street kings
Joke you told?: I don't know any jokes really
Song you've sang?: riot by three days grace
Time you've looked at the clock?: just now lol
Drink you've had?: pepsi!
Number you've dialed?: my brother sean
Book you've read?: twilight!!
Food you've eaten?: hotdogs
Flavor of gum chewed?: cinimon
Shoes you've worn?: flipflops
Store you've been in?: dollar general
Thing you've said?: wtf
Can You
Write with both hands?: no just the right one
Whistle?: sometimes lol
Blow a bubble?: yep
Roll your tounge in a circle?: yes
Cross your eyes?: yes
Touch your tounge to your nose?: um nope
Dance?: not unless im drinking lol
Gleek?: uh no
Stay up a whole night without sleep?: not anymore
Speak a different language?: very little spanish
Impersonate someone?: not too well
Prank call people?: im too old for that crap
Make a card pyramid?: never tried
Cook anything?: i cook plenty
Finish The Line
If i were a ...: movie star I'd be rich!
I wish ...: I was happy
So many people don't know that ...: I'm kinda sad
I am ...: a good mother
My heart is ...: broken
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Well my husband told me today that he is filing for divorce. Can't say I'm surprised cuz I'm not. I'm actually kind of relieved.