Dreamalicious's blog: "Surgery"

To everyone who cares I just wanted to share a little more on this subject. Since all the surgeries I have had in the past few months I have not been on much. This is not only because of the surgeries but also due to the depression it has caused me. I have held back on sharing this but I get so many questions about it, I thought I would finally share. It is hard to go from being a hard working woman to someone who has troubles just climbing a flight of stairs or sitting up for long periods of time. We take these simple tasks for granted and I truly now realize how much in my life I have taken for granted over the years. This has all been a serious eye opener for me. There are so many other things I could mention as for what is taken for granted but I am sure you all get the picture. Being it is hard to go up and down stairs is another reason I am not on here as much as I would like to be. The fact is I do miss everyone and wish I could be on more often to show all the love and support back that has been shown to me and is still being shown, however because of surgery and the mental state it has put me in, I would rather just wait it all out and then come back with a fresh start. I do try and come on as much as I can, with a smile and love in my heart, but it is so hard to do knowing the pain I feel inside. Seeing so many people enjoying life the way I used to enjoy it truly hurts, especially those who are taking advantage of what they have in life. One surgery is bad enough but I have been through 3... 1 of which was 3 procedure all in 1. This really takes it toll on a persons body as well as mental state. I am not looking for pity because I am a strong woman and will pull out of it. This is not my first rodeo and I am sure it won't be my last. I do want everyone who takes the time to read this to know you are all in my thoughts and I love each and everyone of you as true friends. My life has always been an open book and keeping things from friends has never been my way, so there you have it! lol Anyway, I am working on getting my life back into some form of normalcy and until I do, I may not be seen here much. I will take the time when I can to come on and return all love, favors, comments etc. when I can. Much love, God Bless and Blessed Be to all my wonderful friends and fam on the crazy futrain :):):)