Well here I am... back online for the last few days... been feeling up and down a lot... more so down than anything else.. But that’s just something I have come to expect from my past. Not a demon I can be rid of anytime soon I’m afraid to say... but ah well huh, tis life... lol
So let’s see I’m living in a new place now. It’s nice here... my house mate is kind and understanding to me
she has 8 cats that are all adorable... 2 don’t really like me unless I have food lol
I am trying to keep up with all my writing even through these dark feelings... but life is a hard thing and the people within life are just getting to me more and more, they push and probe, poke and pull until you explode at them and lose all self control. But then when do we have self control, I hear things; I listen when people don’t realize I am. I know that though a lot of you say you have high self control when you are pushed, you forget that self control and just lose it and it takes forever for you to calm down enough to realize just how stupid you have acted in panic.
*Groans and looks around* give me strength!
So anyway... I don’t know what to do about a lot of things, every time I feel that I am closer to my goal I seem to find myself that much farther away from it then when I started! Ah I’m just moaning now lol... but I’m allowed to so
Everyone has a problem, everyone has something they need help with. I included in that one lol but then who doesn’t have some issue they wish they could just fix or at least get it so far behind them that it just goes away? Everyone has one they just don’t know how to ask for a little help in the matter that’s all! But ah well that’s not my job to help you with your issues with issues hehe no... I’m here to see if maybe I can help you fix them in any way that I can, granted I cannot always do what I want and help you but I try dammit. And that’s the most important thing I recon.
Meh ok I’m getting off this now lol.... I feel a little better now
bye.